Whose, URSUS. - freezing arrangements Lyrics

You wouldn't know what I've been through even if i told you
Assume each morsel is that of only a torso
Mine scarred with stretch marks, passed down scars
None of your so called stars could surpass whats ours
I use a bottle of jack
To coddle the crash
End up falling back
But thats neither this nor that
My lungs stay the color of automotive scrap
These are thoughts i parade pacing through the laundromat
Freezing arrangements while i'm freezing arrangements
Losing the money I've been saving
I don't remember how my day is
Faces I've mistaken for those of past placements
I crave what i can't have, but ill do anything to have a taste
I always make a mess of the way i decompress
Caress my ladys head to stop myself from becoming mislead
You're afraid your idols will crumble and it fills you with dread
I can't meet my idols till i'm dead

Killing all my idols to the day im fucking dead

I'm killing all idols till the day I'm fucking dead
Appointing people always leaves me wishing we have never met
Chasing butterflies afraid I'll get caught up in the net
I'm on the web looking into ROIs on my degree
I know I'm getting scammed but my idols told me not to leave
My tummy turning everyday I'm not catching a lead
I'm not catching a break I got no money in the bank
I gotta pay for all this shit these idols take for goodness sakes
Rewarding only those who come prepared without mistakes
Like two bullets in the brain they boots stomping on our necks
One miscalculation then the people take their breath
With all these distractions we come acquainted with death
All this information accessed don't mean shit to me
Cuz none of your hero's ever writ to me
Never put me on the pedestal my shit not clean  
Few people be supporting but I claim that scene

Killing all my idols to the day im fucking dead