Tzara, Laudable - Guess I Tried Lyrics

I am not yet born, oh fill me
With strength against those who would freeze my
Humanity, would dragoon me into a lethal automaton
Would make me a cog in a machine, a thing with
One face, a thing, and against all those
Who would dissipate my entirety, would
Blow me like thistledown hither
Let them not make me a stone and let them not spill me
Otherwise kill me

Guess I tried to wish it away
Guess I tried to fuck it away
Guess I tried to drink it away
Guess that didn't work

Guess I tried to will it away
Guess I tried to drug it away
Guess I tried to make you stay
Guess that didn't work

Will it or won't it
I want it, I'm on it

I need light in me

Look, I hate that it always comes to this
Dancing with my demon uncomfortably
Got two left feet but still never take an off-step
You can tell a nigga does is often
That's not something I'm proud of
I cut in and bounce off the product
Got a monkey and a half on my back like
No man should have all that powder
So I split it with my G's, everybody eat
Toast every single drink to the fallen kings
So many brothers lost, spill a whole litre
Still paying for the sins of our old leaders
Still want the same Benz as my old preacher
Just to move and make ends like a dope dealer
Somewhere where the demons won't bother
Taking shit for granted like a genie in a bottle, uh

Guess I tried to wish it away
Guess I tried to fuck it away
Guess I tried to drink it away
Guess that didn't work

Guess I tried to will it away
Guess I tried to drug it away
Guess I tried to make you stay
Guess that didn't work

Will it or won't it
I want it, I'm on it

I am not yet born, oh fill me
With strength against those who would freeze my
Humanity, would dragoon me into a lethal automaton
Would make me a cog in a machine, a thing with
One face, a thing, and against all those
Who would dissipate my entirety, would
Blow me like thistledown hither
Let them not make me a stone and let them not spill me
Otherwise kill me