T'Swan - FLAWS Lyrics

Insecure about my gapped-tooth
Insecure about my weight, too much fast food
I'm insecure about my swag 'cause I don't keep up with fashion
And I ain't never had no piercings or no tattoos
I'm insecure cause I can't dance so when I'm in the club I stand on the wall
I'm still learning how to handle my flaws
Handle my flaws
Yeah
I'm still learning how to handle my flaws

I'm ashamed 'cause I'm twenty-five and I'm still broke
At times I feel hope, sometimes I don't though
Yeah
I'm ashamed because I got just what the game needs
But can't even afford the proper promo
Yeah
I'm ashamed, at this moment I feel I should be living out all my dreams
Wanna marry my girl but can't afford a house or a ring
I'm ashamed that I don't reach out to my family enough
I know you busy but stop acting like you can't keep in touch
I'm ashamed because at times I'm not completely honest
I be making people promises when I don't even wanna do it
I'm ashamed I'm still for working minimum wage
But when I'm on the clock all I be thinking of is music
Ashamed I had the brains but not the discipline to finish college
Right now it even hurt my pockets spending twenty dollars
My ends ain't meeting but I been putting in plenty hours
Maybe that's why I got a heavy conscience
Telling me to stop being so hard on yourself
Stop comparing your success to others, just work on your artistry
Stop trying to be marketable and be remarkable
Leave a mark and spark a revolution with your audio
Regardless if you hit the charts they oughta see how far you go
Stop believing everybody's word, plenty folk will approach you
But most of them don't got nothing to offer though
Stop holding on to every reason that your heart is cold

But I'm sick of acting like its all good
I'm sick of people who ain't never 'bout no action but they talk good
I'm sick of this pressure to change my style
I'm sick of people who are suddenly concerned when in the past you never came around
I'm actually sick of the fact that I'm not famous now
Sick of trying to figure out how to entertain this crowd
I'm sick of cheap-talking but I'm sick of things being pricey
I'm sick of pretenders, sick of groupies, I'm sick of hypebeasts
Sick of funerals and rumors, sick of repetition
Sick of rappers and radio, sick of television
Sick of people telling me how they support my vision
But when you get the opportunity you ignore the vision

I'm afraid that I may never make it
I'm afraid that if I do I'll be hella hated and less celebrated
I'm afraid y'all don't wanna hear what I gotta say, judging by the modern day
So to God I pray because I'm afraid that I may just die tomorrow
I'm afraid I might suffocate from all this pride I swallow
I'm afraid that I may not be able to handle stardom
Plus the fact that I live in a land where I am a target
I'm afraid that my people don't really know where my heart is
I'm afraid my generation don't know what working hard is
I'm afraid my generation don't really know what art is
Afraid my generation won't accept me as an artist
And that thought is the hardest

But I'm glad that I got family and friends
I got visions, got ambition, I got Grammys to win
I got issues but it could be way worse, yeah
After all I got to wake up and spend one more day on this great Earth
I got insecurities, I got fears, things I regret
Got countless things on my bucket-list I haven't got to yet
I gotta get to my goals so I gotta go to bat
I gotta stop letting all these thoughts hold me back