The Ableist, Gillian McGhee, Ryan Morris - Aelita Lyrics

Your absence lingers over a debt that's self-imposed
To those I keep around me, the same ones you held close
Though it's time I concede and embrace the defeat
That I might not double take at you on the street
It's still a shame things played out the way that they did
I wonder if they hadn't, if I'd still regret
The way that we lived, while I yearn to forget
How it was our teenage years came to their end

It's a piece I'll have to process, not one that I can own
As painful as that fact is, it's the proper way to cope

When they used to call us old souls
We'd take pride, but act so bold
Not yet wise enough to notice
The fragility of youth

Though the fact is you should be here
The truth is that you're gone
Because it's all fun and games
Until someone won't wake up

Back then we'd hear "you're beyond your years"
Wasted breath that went, that went in one ear
Before it fell, it fell right out the other
We'd come to change the tense, the tense beside your name

Some of us have bands and
We know each other's songs
Certain days remind us
You're immortal in your youth

Though the tragedies we wove through
Bestow us with each verse
They still beckon up the burdens
We confront in waking up

Back then we'd hear "you're beyond your years"
Wasted breath that went, that went in one ear
Before it fell, it fell right out the other
We'd come to change the tense, the tense beside your name

Though part of me resents you
I still hope that you'd be proud
Of the person I'm becoming
While the world falls to hell

The fact is you should be here
Though it's not our fault you're gone
Cause you'd be right up here beside us
But you overdosed on junk