The Ableist - Aquamarine Lyrics

Diversey down to Sheridan
Then Belmont to the lake
It dawned there, under blackened skies
I'd exhausted that routine
Nothing quite echoes your
Evasive state of being
Yet I wondered how we drifted from
What we could have been
I think back on a time and place
A past I can't eradicate
The way you loved me in your stare
Can't mend all the pain you feel

Surfaced in an unknown sea of endless pleasantries
I watched the lake shimmer in shades, in tones aquamarine
There it sank in how you spoke of such a cold and lonesome fate
Which explains why you were never there, but it's not your fault I stayed

Some mornings I'm in traffic
I feel you pass me on the train
I hope you're safer in your skin
But I sense your ache reverberate
I reflect back on that final day
A moment that took all your strength
The only one we both were there
You wept 'goodbye,' I brushed your hair

Surfaced in an unknown sea of endless pleasantries
I watched the lake shimmer in shades, in tones aquamarine
There it sank in how you spoke of such a cold and lonesome fate
Which explains why you were never there, but it's not your fault I stayed

I may never write a song
That sends shivers down your spine
My voice is not so graceful
To provoke such flattery
I can only speak to trauma
And this path we've moved along
So from this point going forward
I'll expose the world's wrongs
I can accept the fact you hate me
That you don't know who I am
All I ask is that you try
Try and understand
Please understand I tried
Please understand I tried
Please understand I tried
Please understand

I tried

Remember you once told me how you'd step out towards the lake
The water would be freezing-you'd submerge and drift away
Your lungs would collapse, immersed-fill with water, blue and green
Though I've been beneath the surface-you deserve a better fate
Your eyes reflecting my perception-should they shimmer in that stone
Not to flicker out in blackness, as you drown in pain alone