Symph0ny - Insecurities Lyrics

Yeah

I need something to keep me away from being awake while i'm in this state
I hate the fact that I can stay in bed for the entire day
No
I'm trynna stay woke
My work friends think I'm high as the sky all the time
That ain't no lie
I'm
Really not doing well
I'm always asking for help
Why can't I do this shit myself
People got their own things on
They have shit on their lists and you're not listed as one
So why do you think you're important
Write a song
Shut up and record it

Distorting your words to make it seem like it's worse is what makes you hurt
So learn from your mistakes and move on
Don't end up a guy that can't get over accusations that occurred years ago
Ridicule those who have no interests in lies you probably told.
(Uh)

I'm losing sleep over things that are happening to me
I know that some people are happy seeing me bleed
And some people are happy knowing I'll probably never leave
Some people just want to see me suffering in my own shitty decisions
Envisioning me losing my sanity
Lately I feel like it's my reality
I'm happily married to the fact that I'll never be good enough for myself
Before I can be there for someone else
I doc losing patients cause medication never helped

Intricate flow patterns running through my mind all the time
Without that there's only static
I've had it with all my habits of fasting out about heartbreak all the time
I'm glad that I got a good set of friends at my back
Cause one day I might not text you back

Just know that I love yall and it's forever like that
So don't you worry
Don't be sorry for not knowing about my ignorance
I just have the need to neglect my shit
I don't wanna have to tell you like this but...
I'm not fucking happy