Ry August - plane thoughts Lyrics

This might not be what you want
But it's what I need

Feeling moody turn on Californication got so high I flashed back to my moms basement
Now I'm dancing in a mansion with Marilyn Manson and feeling manic
People all around me taking pictures trying not to panic whoa
I feel so alone
I was just back home people counting on me
But they are proud of things that I just can't see
I feel like I'm living in my final fantasy
Fuck it I'm a failure
Still broke still alone in this seat with my thoughts that you prolly won't hear cus I'm still unknown
I'm up here close to god having conversations with him most wouldn't understand
Trying to figure out his plan but I shouldn't question him
I'm just impatient
I been working on my craft way back since the basement now it's vacant

My plane took off at 9am and I left my past way back then
The worlds on fire I can see the flames
But this blue up here gives me hope for change
I write this sitting in row 26 thinking 26 reasons I won't make it
My anxiety been racing at all time highs
So I get high just to keep my life

I debated if Ms America worth it
But Instagram is fake I'm certain
I'm pulling the curtains
Reality anymore ain't real life
Pour up the bourbon I'm swerving
Sip sip
Skating away watch me kick flip
My mind into a real life vision
You all so tuned into politicians
While life passes you by don't miss it
This ain't bout rap no more nah nah
I don't go to class anymore nah nah
Money coming in but its moving kinda slow
I ain't here to front no more no no
So give me more of that real shit
Script my heart so you feel this
As soon as I land I won't feel shit
Leave you with these songs they the realest

My plane took off at 9am and I left my past way back then
The worlds on fire I can see the flames
But this blue up here gives me hope for change
I write this sitting in row 26 thinking 26 reasons I won't make it
My anxiety been racing at all time highs
So I get high just to keep my life

Get high
Landed at LAX
Sunshine everyday like we fine but in our minds this city cold