Origin Crxss, Johanna - Memories Lyrics

You were my dream, my go-to guy
Partner in crime with all the perks
I'd been fighting hard to make it work
But you went and did it your way
And now it's hard to replay that Monday that Tuesday night

You and I when we combined
We had a bond could survive
Anything the test of time
Could try to find
We was the only ones
Strong enough to kill our love
No if, ands or buts cuz
We was both wrong

Maybe in my mind I had it twisted
Maybe I was a lil too altruistic
Baby our relationship was sick sadistic
Got pissed quick
Now I'm stuck here reminiscing
All about this beautiful girl I'm missing
Gave you the world you wanted different
You wanted love I wanted instant
Recognition, fame and riches
Success was all I could invision
Till you cut me loose like a true incision
Never been a victim of such precision
Decisions filled with much cold derision
Caused me to lash out with my temper risen
Growing distant with no provision
Of sympathetic compassion given
The circumstances I kind of get it
No matter how I try I can't forget it
They say forgiveness never been expensive
But i don't buy it I lay here pensive
Wonder how it got so reprehensive
Neither willing to show our penance
It became a war of all out vengeance
Thinking back to the beginning
You were my drug I couldn't kick it
The habit to which I was addicted
But a fix it turned into a sickness
Enough I had couldnt admit it
To the world around me so viscous
It had turned me into a zombie
The lying hit me like a discuss
Boredom hit me like a Ali
Doing things I had no business
Memories of hotel lobby

You and I when we combined
We had a bond could survive
Anything the test of time
Could try to find
We was the only ones
Strong enough to kill our love
No if, ands or buts cuz
We was both wrong

The first time I saw you
It was '09 in the summer time
About 12 noon with that sunshine
And at the time it was only
One pretty face on my mind
Though I'm the kinda guy that's kinda shy
I knew that I had to talk to you
So as you were passing through
The vestibule I said to you
How do you do confidence grew
When you spoke back and I know that
You could hear my heart doing jumping jacks
Like an acrobat I was twisted up
Looking back prolly just enough
You found it cute how I was rough
Around the edges unlike some
What we had was genuine
In a life time you only get one
Of them some people get none
So ecstatic to have it
I took you out on our first date
Found out that we met when we was 8
So that night we sat and ate
The same thang that we did
When we was kids once again
As time passed we grew together
Held you in gloomy weather
You supported my life endeavor
I wanted us set like forever
Everyday I got closer
I got closer to stopping never
Worked too hard came home tired
Woke up in the morning with more fire
Could not stop for less than you crying
Every set back just raised my ire
And you grew resentful
Started hurting each other
And we went from plentiful
And ended back in the gutter
And now it's over and I miss you
But we should take it no further

You and I when we combined
We had a bond could survive
Anything the test of time
Could try to find
We was the only ones
Strong enough to kill our love
No if, ands or buts cuz
We was both wrong

I will take a page from out your book
And from now I'll only look out for me
I fell for your enigmatic guise
But then we paid the price
Baby I wish we could make it last
Even though we loved it's in the past
So now all that we have left are memories