Optimize - Void Lyrics

Every holiday another single day that's passing
They know that somethings wrong, they feel better 'cause they asking
Then I'll disappear, they confused about what happened
A victim to the pattern
Voice in my head, make me wish that I was deaf
Blame it on the hormones, heard I'm in a storm so
White-knuckle the door closed
Shot to my chest, and I bleed down my torso
They left me in a war zone
Tell me take drugs in my church clothes
How 'bout when the store go
Where I get my fix from
Screaming at the sky for an answer
I don't see one, maybe it's in Morse code
Means I gotta read some
No more sunshine, no more joy
I've been trapped inside a cage, ever since I was a boy
I been looking for another quick fix to fill the void
Another day of silence, to finally kill the noise 'cause the
Rain don't stop, and the days won't end
So the pain won't quit, they said that I'll get used to it
Then why've I been this way since a kid
And I still see scars when I look at my wrist
Rain don't stop, and the days won't end
So the pain won't quit, they said that I'll get used to it
Then why've I been this way since a kid
And I still see scars when I look at my wrist
Never meant to be this way they say, but it still is
Cup ain't runneth over, I might spill it
Addiction make me empty, relapsing bring fulfillment
The process of my illness
Chased the life I thought I wanted, without knowing what it looks like
They promised it'd get better if I read my holy books, right
Leave a couple days, and I don't hear from you, I'm hung dry
'I'm busy, it's all love', right? No
Truth is, we too different and we disagree on everything
If I'm not like them, I'm dead to them
I'm embarrassed when I'm next to them
No one could cure my sentiment
Phone stays on DND, I'm scared that they'd be leaving me
To try to keep the peace in me, I'm hiding every piece of me
Never ending cycle, only die in the dreams that I don't wake up
And my hood stays up, 'cause the
Rain don't stop, and the days won't end
So the pain won't quit, they said that I'll get used to it
Then why've I been this way since a kid
And I still see scars when I look at my wrist
No more sunshine, no more joy
I've been trapped inside a cage, ever since I was a boy
I been looking for another quick fix to fill the void
Another day of silence, to finally kill the noise,
No more sunshine, no more joy
I've been trapped inside a cage, ever since I was a boy
I been looking for another quick fix to fill the void
Another day of silence, to finally kill the noise

Every holiday another single day that's passing
They know that somethings wrong, they feel better 'cause they asking
Then I'll disappear, they confused about what happened
A victim to the pattern
Voice in my head, make me wish that I was deaf
Blame it on the hormones, heard I'm in a storm so
White-knuckle the door closed
Shot to my chest, and I bleed down my torso
They left me in a war zone
Tell me take drugs in my church clothes
How 'bout when the store go
Where I get my fix from
Screaming at the sky for an answer
I don't see one, maybe it's in Morse code
Means I gotta read some
No more sunshine, no more joy
I've been trapped inside a cage, ever since I was a boy
I been looking for another quick fix to fill the void
Another day of silence, to finally kill the noise 'cause the
Rain don't stop, and the days won't end
So the pain won't quit, they said that I'll get used to it
Then why've I been this way since a kid
And I still see scars when I look at my wrist
Rain don't stop, and the days won't end
So the pain won't quit, they said that I'll get used to it
Then why've I been this way since a kid
And I still see scars when I look at my wrist
Never meant to be this way they say, but it still is
Cup ain't runneth over, I might spill it
Addiction make me empty, relapsing bring fulfillment
The process of my illness
Chased the life I thought I wanted, without knowing what it looks like
They promised it'd get better if I read my holy books, right
Leave a couple days, and I don't hear from you, I'm hung dry
'I'm busy, it's all love', right? No
Truth is, we too different and we disagree on everything
If I'm not like them, I'm dead to them
I'm embarrassed when I'm next to them
No one could cure my sentiment
Phone stays on DND, I'm scared that they'd be leaving me
To try to keep the peace in me, I'm hiding every piece of me
Never ending cycle, only die in the dreams that I don't wake up
And my hood stays up, 'cause the
Rain don't stop, and the days won't end
So the pain won't quit, they said that I'll get used to it
Then why've I been this way since a kid
And I still see scars when I look at my wrist
No more sunshine, no more joy
I've been trapped inside a cage, ever since I was a boy
I been looking for another quick fix to fill the void
Another day of silence, to finally kill the noise,
No more sunshine, no more joy
I've been trapped inside a cage, ever since I was a boy
I been looking for another quick fix to fill the void
Another day of silence, to finally kill the noise