Olliea, Saint T, BTB - Ghost Me Lyrics

I write with my heart
Idk why yall just ghost me, I never wanna left in the past
My thoughts got me feeling lonely idk why life's getting so hard
I just wanna be saved like a goalie but the shots go straight through to my arms
My life's been getting so dark
I think it's getting to the point where everyone finds me irrelevant
I know it's got to that point cus I see no one they feel too elegant
My thoughts are stuck in my head so i write with a pen I'm still in development
I think I'm going insane I'm locked in my brain and now it's delicate
Like what do you mean, i'm stuck in a dream or should i call it a nightmare
I just wanna drift into the sea, and rest in piece, the ending is right there
I wanna be released and free and my mind at ease but apparently it's not fair
Like how the fuck have i got here, like every night i just shed tears
I feel like a flower that gets no light, cus I'm goddam useless
Whenever I'm down I wear disguise, so you guys are clueless
I struggle to sleep at night I try, so I just write music
At moment I struggle to go outside, anxiety's stupid
Anxiety's stupid, arrow to the heart like Cupid
I don't wanna feel so ruthless, I don't wanna feel this fucking useless
I see this turning abusive, this ain't a dream and I'm not lucid
Getting too high, my house is roofless, capping to all of my friends, I'm Judas
I don't wanna feel this pain, you killed my heart now I'm killing my brain
These voices say I'm insane, they might be right, I can't be tamed
These scars are leaving a stain, I'm at the centre of all of the strain
I sit in my room and watch all the rain, I call it window pane
Rip out my heart
Rip out my veins and tear me apart
Play with my brain so I can't restart
Leave me deranged so I can't depart
I knew I would fail, I said from the start
Purchase my life and add to the cart
I don't wanna feel a second part
I paint with my blood like it's art, yeah
I've been getting so drunk and high, don't think it's a good thing, I'm telling lies
I've been getting too wavy, so much so that I feel that I'm pulled out by the tide
I can never tell you how I feel bout my shit coz I got too much pride
I can never tell you how I feel in general coz I gotta keep my pride
I got an image don't wanna ruin that shit all so quick in the blink of an eye
I'm from a place where everyone's depressed and lonely working a 9-5
Fuck that shit yeah I'm tryna be different, From a 9-5 I'm socially distant
To meet those guidelines see the bigger picture, I don't wanna get all stuck in the frame
I don't wanna kill my brain, I don't wanna get tied in the chain, society brings
I don't wanna eat my food and drink my drink but no shit left on a plate, society's thing
It'll kill your mind, and try make a sin
Feed on your blood, when your wires are thin
Life is support, that I'm dying in
I'm running the course, the weights on my shin
This shit is a war, so death will begin

I write with my heart
Idk why yall just ghost me, I never wanna left in the past
My thoughts got me feeling lonely idk why life's getting so hard
I just wanna be saved like a goalie but the shots go straight through to my arms
My life's been getting so dark
I think it's getting to the point where everyone finds me irrelevant
I know it's got to that point cus I see no one they feel too elegant
My thoughts are stuck in my head so i write with a pen I'm still in development
I think I'm going insane I'm locked in my brain and now it's delicate
Like what do you mean, i'm stuck in a dream or should i call it a nightmare
I just wanna drift into the sea, and rest in piece, the ending is right there
I wanna be released and free and my mind at ease but apparently it's not fair
Like how the fuck have i got here, like every night i just shed tears
I feel like a flower that gets no light, cus I'm goddam useless
Whenever I'm down I wear disguise, so you guys are clueless
I struggle to sleep at night I try, so I just write music
At moment I struggle to go outside, anxiety's stupid
Anxiety's stupid, arrow to the heart like Cupid
I don't wanna feel so ruthless, I don't wanna feel this fucking useless
I see this turning abusive, this ain't a dream and I'm not lucid
Getting too high, my house is roofless, capping to all of my friends, I'm Judas
I don't wanna feel this pain, you killed my heart now I'm killing my brain
These voices say I'm insane, they might be right, I can't be tamed
These scars are leaving a stain, I'm at the centre of all of the strain
I sit in my room and watch all the rain, I call it window pane
Rip out my heart
Rip out my veins and tear me apart
Play with my brain so I can't restart
Leave me deranged so I can't depart
I knew I would fail, I said from the start
Purchase my life and add to the cart
I don't wanna feel a second part
I paint with my blood like it's art, yeah
I've been getting so drunk and high, don't think it's a good thing, I'm telling lies
I've been getting too wavy, so much so that I feel that I'm pulled out by the tide
I can never tell you how I feel bout my shit coz I got too much pride
I can never tell you how I feel in general coz I gotta keep my pride
I got an image don't wanna ruin that shit all so quick in the blink of an eye
I'm from a place where everyone's depressed and lonely working a 9-5
Fuck that shit yeah I'm tryna be different, From a 9-5 I'm socially distant
To meet those guidelines see the bigger picture, I don't wanna get all stuck in the frame
I don't wanna kill my brain, I don't wanna get tied in the chain, society brings
I don't wanna eat my food and drink my drink but no shit left on a plate, society's thing
It'll kill your mind, and try make a sin
Feed on your blood, when your wires are thin
Life is support, that I'm dying in
I'm running the course, the weights on my shin
This shit is a war, so death will begin