Muka Surat 9 - Call Me 'Razor' Lyrics

I remember being sad all my life
Thinking that I'll be nothing but disappointment to their eyes
And I had failed all my life
For all the shame that I caused them
They can't look me straight in the eyes
Pay a visit to the doctor
She prescribed me some pills
And I'm supposed to be calm
I'm so high up the ground
But then I fall down hard and it won't stop
All these thoughts
I'm stuck with all these thoughts
All I did was for these thoughts
I'd replace all my pills and these thoughts
For the razor
For I'm calmer after the cut
And those thoughts
These voices
They need to be cut
To satisfy them I need the razor
And the blood from the cut
Oh, holy ghosts that held me close
From my childhood to my youth
You have given me the strength
To bear this pain for years
You had slain my soul from the aftermath
Engraved a scar on my rotten heart
You're the reason I survived
Though I wanted to be dead
And I'm hurt
And I cut them to know
That pain is a choice
I gave them no choice
So, they call me 'razor'
I only knew of three emotions
Anger, sadness, and hatred
Never put my devotions
To an unseen faith or God of the likes
I think I'm done with playing games
And I'm so sick of the shame
I just want to go in flames
Let my tears announce their fames
I'm so caught up with these emotions
I feel so sick at my own reflection
Tired of waking up to realize
That I'm still alive
It's kill or be killed
There's nothing in between
So, here's my confessions
Oh, holy ghosts that held me close
From my childhood to my youth
You have given me the strength
To bear this pain for years
You had slain my soul from the aftermath
Engraved a scar on my rotten heart
You're the reason I survived
Though I wanted to be dead
And I'm hurt
And I cut them to know
That pain is a choice
I gave them no choice
So, they call me 'razor'
Call me 'razor'
My cut is deeper
Call me 'razor'
We're going under

I remember being sad all my life
Thinking that I'll be nothing but disappointment to their eyes
And I had failed all my life
For all the shame that I caused them
They can't look me straight in the eyes
Pay a visit to the doctor
She prescribed me some pills
And I'm supposed to be calm
I'm so high up the ground
But then I fall down hard and it won't stop
All these thoughts
I'm stuck with all these thoughts
All I did was for these thoughts
I'd replace all my pills and these thoughts
For the razor
For I'm calmer after the cut
And those thoughts
These voices
They need to be cut
To satisfy them I need the razor
And the blood from the cut
Oh, holy ghosts that held me close
From my childhood to my youth
You have given me the strength
To bear this pain for years
You had slain my soul from the aftermath
Engraved a scar on my rotten heart
You're the reason I survived
Though I wanted to be dead
And I'm hurt
And I cut them to know
That pain is a choice
I gave them no choice
So, they call me 'razor'
I only knew of three emotions
Anger, sadness, and hatred
Never put my devotions
To an unseen faith or God of the likes
I think I'm done with playing games
And I'm so sick of the shame
I just want to go in flames
Let my tears announce their fames
I'm so caught up with these emotions
I feel so sick at my own reflection
Tired of waking up to realize
That I'm still alive
It's kill or be killed
There's nothing in between
So, here's my confessions
Oh, holy ghosts that held me close
From my childhood to my youth
You have given me the strength
To bear this pain for years
You had slain my soul from the aftermath
Engraved a scar on my rotten heart
You're the reason I survived
Though I wanted to be dead
And I'm hurt
And I cut them to know
That pain is a choice
I gave them no choice
So, they call me 'razor'
Call me 'razor'
My cut is deeper
Call me 'razor'
We're going under