MoonManFlo - CHANGES Lyrics

Another day another disappointment
I wonder if it's worth it
If I try to make a point to not
Fade into the crowd
I got chameleon skin
That only work when I ain't tryna fit in
Of course I love myself
I hate my own reflection
Wishing I was Dracula
Don't wanna live forever
But I wanna live
Don't wanna give myself away
But I wanna give
I know a thought is temporary
But a feeling is forever
I pray for sunny days
But life changes like the weather
My wings fully grown
And I keep losing all my feathers
A bird in the hand
Is like a bird in the sand
I see girls I can see myself with
I see worlds I can see myself tripping
Off the buzz I'm just bumbling
Words getting jumbled keep stumbling
I fumble every verb nouns tumbling
Now and then I get a good verse and I wonder
If they really listening or am I just too quiet

And I'm the only one that understands
Nobody else can relate
And the only things changing is the numbers on the date
The only things changing is whatever ease the pain

Recently I just been finding ways to manage
Try and control the damage and do my best not to panic
A modest mouse told me some vital words in the past
Now it's stuck in a loop in my head and it's keeping me going
It's keeping me breathing
It's keeping the faith
It's keeping the fight
It's keeping the spirit
It's keeping the light
It's keeping the little bit that I have
From eating itself alive
I shouldn't have to reiterate no I don't wanna die
But its crippling like that grip
That i'm keeping on to that vice
When they say it ain't safe to gamble
You steady rolling that dice
And it's natural to hope the numbers
Is looking like gas stations
It's natural to hope life giving you credit
Like advanced placement
Hoping the checks don't bounce
Like advanced payments
Hoping I check out soon
Hoping it's worth it when I'm chilling in the upper room
That VIP
That's a very improbable purgatory

And I'm just tryna change the situation
And I'm just tryna change my situation
And I'm just tryna change yo situation
And it don't wanna change
I don't wanna change
You don't wanna change
We don't wanna change
And I'm just tryna change the situation
And I'm just tryna change my situation
And I'm just tryna change yo situation
And it don't wanna change
I don't wanna change
You don't wanna change
We don't wanna change
We don't wanna