Mickz - Joy Lyrics

When I closed my eyes at night
I lost sight of the weight of the world
Had my shoulders feeling all light
No sweat on my shirt like earl
Getting older dreams got heavy
Had my posture feeling all curled
No place where I could feel free
No problems never unheard

So often man I stayed up
And I thought to myself why me
Cuz the problems never let up
And my thoughts they never got free
And my dreams they only got worse
And the way out only got steep
So often man I stayed up but now I don't know when I'm up or asleep

So tell me what do you do
When the world comes crumbling in
And your thoughts they get pinned down
Can't speak cuz your heads in a spin
Can't complain cuz you know worse
So you contain all of it in
And you act tough but you got hurt
But cuts only count on the skin

Man I lost count how many times
I've had to see loved ones cry
And sometimes I get upset
But more time I don't know why
So you might think everything's great
When you're outside and you look in
But when you cross through that gate
You can see how life's really been

You can see why I used to sleep tight at night but I don't no more
Too many things play on my mind
Unsure of my place as a man sometimes
So I got to set pace or my place sets flight
N I got to stay light
Cuz I'm stepping through darkness
So I stay moving got to climb height
No one ever told me life would be harmless
But I never knew our back's held knives

So tell me why I try this hard when I never really cared
Only few things in this world that I really feared
And they went 'cuz I lost you now I feel scared
And I lied when I said that I healed it ain't fair
Now I fight to be with you again out of fear
I'm alone cuz you can't lift me out of despair
And I hate that I lost you nothing compares
Your the title of this so you know that I care