Mic Flo - Lost In Grief Lyrics

I'm lost in grief, lost in blame, I'm lost in anger
Lost my mom, lost my heart, I lost my anchor
I'm lost in grief
Trying to foster peace
Who I knew the most is who I knew the least
It's real hard to accept my life with you deceased
I seek a substance to try and infuse some peace
But don't wanna be destructive so I choose the beats
The funny thing is I'm so happy you aren't suffering
It's like your heart broke cuz you just had enough of things
Living in pandemic with racism virulent
You felt stress and fear everywhere you went
You used to say you'd fall on your face when you went to pray
So I should give thanks that all the stress went away
I wonder if you still worry as your watching us
Or have you found peace now that you truly see the God in us
I'm hoping it's the latter
Reconciling how the dreams for which you hoped were shattered
So I'm picking up the pieces trying to solve the puzzle
But without you the path is often muddled
I'm lost in grief, lost in blame, I'm lost in anger
Lost my mom, lost my heart, I lost my anchor
I'm lost in grief
Trying to foster peace
I'm lost in grief, lost in blame, I'm lost in anger
Lost my mom, lost my heart, lost my anchor
I'm lost in grief
Trying to foster peace
I reminisce cooking with Mom that was our past time
I never thought this year would be the last time
We don't amass time as time advance I'm
Steady searching for solutions that I can't find
Nuance has been battered with a bludgeon
On all sides I seem to chatter with curmudgeons
But Mom embodied compassion and godly action
And did it elegantly in the illest fashions
As she ascends heavenly I contemplate her legacy
Promoting positivity and sharing love readily
When she'd visit her voice rang like a melody
How do I live with this pain that envelops me
I use it to develop the values the she held dear
Love, compassion, and empathy they're held near
To my heart until they're felt clear
And then I felt your presence and briefly felt cheer
I'm lost in grief, lost in blame, I'm lost in anger
Lost my mom, lost my heart, I lost my anchor
I'm lost in grief
Trying to foster peace
I'm lost in grief, lost in blame, I'm lost in anger
Lost my mom, lost my heart, lost my anchor
I'm lost in grief
Trying to foster peace
I'm feeling lost in anger so I search for guidance
Wonder how the survived by truly survive this
Was searching for sublime bliss but kept feeling malign hits
So I'm taking wine sips trying to realize this
Acceptance cuz to deny is to reject bliss
I'm tempted to embrace my anger and act reckless
Cuz life feels feckless and I feel helpless
But I recognize that that's self centered and selfish
So I'm thinking like What Would Marsha do
When life feels impossible cuz of a million obstacles
I know you'd lose yourself in helping others
The quintessential example of an unselfish mother
So when I'm lost your guidance is what I found
Find love and compassion and double down
Forget yourself and work with love for others
That's your legacy, I love you mother

I'm lost in grief, lost in blame, I'm lost in anger
Lost my mom, lost my heart, I lost my anchor
I'm lost in grief
Trying to foster peace
Who I knew the most is who I knew the least
It's real hard to accept my life with you deceased
I seek a substance to try and infuse some peace
But don't wanna be destructive so I choose the beats
The funny thing is I'm so happy you aren't suffering
It's like your heart broke cuz you just had enough of things
Living in pandemic with racism virulent
You felt stress and fear everywhere you went
You used to say you'd fall on your face when you went to pray
So I should give thanks that all the stress went away
I wonder if you still worry as your watching us
Or have you found peace now that you truly see the God in us
I'm hoping it's the latter
Reconciling how the dreams for which you hoped were shattered
So I'm picking up the pieces trying to solve the puzzle
But without you the path is often muddled
I'm lost in grief, lost in blame, I'm lost in anger
Lost my mom, lost my heart, I lost my anchor
I'm lost in grief
Trying to foster peace
I'm lost in grief, lost in blame, I'm lost in anger
Lost my mom, lost my heart, lost my anchor
I'm lost in grief
Trying to foster peace
I reminisce cooking with Mom that was our past time
I never thought this year would be the last time
We don't amass time as time advance I'm
Steady searching for solutions that I can't find
Nuance has been battered with a bludgeon
On all sides I seem to chatter with curmudgeons
But Mom embodied compassion and godly action
And did it elegantly in the illest fashions
As she ascends heavenly I contemplate her legacy
Promoting positivity and sharing love readily
When she'd visit her voice rang like a melody
How do I live with this pain that envelops me
I use it to develop the values the she held dear
Love, compassion, and empathy they're held near
To my heart until they're felt clear
And then I felt your presence and briefly felt cheer
I'm lost in grief, lost in blame, I'm lost in anger
Lost my mom, lost my heart, I lost my anchor
I'm lost in grief
Trying to foster peace
I'm lost in grief, lost in blame, I'm lost in anger
Lost my mom, lost my heart, lost my anchor
I'm lost in grief
Trying to foster peace
I'm feeling lost in anger so I search for guidance
Wonder how the survived by truly survive this
Was searching for sublime bliss but kept feeling malign hits
So I'm taking wine sips trying to realize this
Acceptance cuz to deny is to reject bliss
I'm tempted to embrace my anger and act reckless
Cuz life feels feckless and I feel helpless
But I recognize that that's self centered and selfish
So I'm thinking like What Would Marsha do
When life feels impossible cuz of a million obstacles
I know you'd lose yourself in helping others
The quintessential example of an unselfish mother
So when I'm lost your guidance is what I found
Find love and compassion and double down
Forget yourself and work with love for others
That's your legacy, I love you mother