Merkules ft. Stevie Ross - Gon Die Lyrics

(I smoke too much, I drink too much)
(I smoke too much, I drink too much)

I smoke too much, I drink too much, I feel like I'm gon' die
I'm anxious bruh, it's way too much, I think I lost my mind
Once again I'm on the edge and I just keep on looking down
If I jumped and hit rock bottom would it even make a sound?

I smoke too much, I drink too much, I feel like I'm gon' die
I'm anxious bruh, it's way too much, I think I lost my mind
Once again I'm on the edge and I just keep on looking down
If I jumped and hit rock bottom would it even make a sound?

'Cause I don't wanna feel like this
But this some real life shit
I know you feel my shit, whoa
No, I don't wanna feel like this
But this some real life shit
I know you feel my shit, whoa

How'd it get like this?
So fucked up I could slit my wrists
But I'm in that whip and I'm way too high like I hit the switch
I gotta figure it out but all my friends like, "Merk whatchu trippin' about?"
See what I'm feeling is doubt
It used to be a dream now I'm livin' it out
But we still in the drought, huh?
It's kinda crazy how that works
At sixteen I got hacked like a password
I'm a product of my past now that hurts
I'm the real fucking deal you an actor
Last year I lost my uncle to cancer
So this year I don't fuck with you rappers
The worst part is I just started smoking
It's fucked up y'all think that I'm joking
That's the reason that he lost his life, I did not think twice
It does not feel right
What can I say I'm a sick individual
Drinking all the time now it feels like a ritual
It started off small, it was minuscule
I been doin' this shit since middle school
They asking me questions in interviews
They wanna know what I did and I didn't do

I smoke too much, I drink too much, I feel like I'm gon' die
I'm anxious bruh, it's way too much, I think I lost my mind
Once again I'm on the edge and I just keep on looking down
If I jumped and hit rock bottom would it even make a sound?

I smoke too much, I drink too much, I feel like I'm gon' die
I'm anxious bruh, it's way too much, I think I lost my mind
Once again I'm on the edge and I just keep on looking down
If I jumped and hit rock bottom would it even make a sound?

And they all love the song too much
Sleeping, I eat junk too much
High living month to month
Phone change up I'ma die soon
Give mama all the money from the iTunes
Stepping on shells in my nice shoes
Don't wanna load it up 'cause I might shoot
I hang around guns and bricks
I need to stop catching rides on these sunken ships
Mean I'm on but I'm not what the assumption is
Last year I was sad as shit but I was rich
And now I'm broke with a classic
Now I'm clean and sober
Man I came so far from leanin' over
Ex-friends talkin' 'bout how Stevie over
But they need the order
They don't even know me
Picking up the bag with no logo
Every damn thing stamps inside
I'd say more but its better that you don't know
Wave high when you camped outside
Last year I had four different condos
Kicked door before I could have five
That's why every day I wake and give thanks and I'm humble
If I don't I might die 'cause

I wake up every morning still exhausted
Cigarette butts on the carpet
I been fed up with this nonsense, yeah
There's still a couple demons in my closet
When I see 'em just the feeling makes me nauseous
I can't stop it no

I smoke too much, I drink too much, I feel like I'm gon' die
I'm anxious bruh, it's way too much, I think I lost my mind
Once again I'm on the edge and I just keep on looking down
If I jumped and hit rock bottom would it even make a sound?

'Cause I don't wanna feel like this
But this some real life shit
I know you feel my shit, whoa
No I don't wanna feel like this
But this some real life shit
I know you feel my shit, whoa

'Cause I don't wanna feel like this
But this some real life shit
I know you feel my shit, whoa
No I don't wanna feel like this
But this some real life shit
I know you feel my shit, whoa

I smoke too much, I drink too much, I feel like I'm gon' die
I'm anxious bruh, it's way too much, I think I lost my mind
I smoke too much, I drink too much, I feel like I'm gon' die
I'm anxious bruh, it's way too much, I think I lost my mind
I smoke too much, I drink too much, I feel like I'm gon' die
I'm anxious bruh, it's way too much, I think I lost my mind
I smoke too much, I drink too much, I feel like I'm gon' die
I'm anxious bruh, it's way too much, I think I lost my mind