MC Anomaly, Poetics - The Real Me Lyrics

Now I've been fighting insecurities it kills me
If I was open and just honest would you feel me
Would everybody stick around I guess that we'll see
Well here's a chance for you to get to know the real me
The real me
The real me
The real me
The real me
The real me
The real me
The real me
The real me

Now I'll be open and just honest if you want me too
Cuz I got some things that I don't talk about
See growin up me and my dad was cool
That was until he started walking out
See you and I we just couldn't relate
As I was growing I could see some changes
You know this verse was so easy to make
Cuz now your gone and that feelings the strangest
Look at how you passed away with your ashes at the lake
And I still got a few more things that I have to say
Gonna take a lot more than half a page
Like why you never taught me things I'm dealing with depression and the misery it often brings
Oh help me please
Your selfish schemes are the reason that I got no self esteem

Now I've been fighting insecurities it kills me
If I was open and just honest would you feel me
Would everybody stick around I guess that we'll see
Well here's a chance for you to get to know the real me
The real me
The real me
The real me
The real me
The real me
The real me
The real me
The real me

I see that liquor s got you angry huh
Well what was you just yelling at
Look Josh you need to get your act together
Like oh you really just gon tell me that
Ain't you the one that can't hold down a job
You found a man and then you left us stranded
Tell you the truth I feel like I was robbed
Wanted a dad but this ain't how I planned it
And it all gets passed down
Where you at now
Oh I know that sound
That's the sound of the medic gonna grab that stretcher from the ambulance to put you in the back now
You were homeless
I was so sick
Punching every single wall with a cold fist
Be glad that wall was not my dad cuz when I cock it back man I don't miss

Now I've been fighting insecurities it kills me
If I was open and just honest would you feel me
Would everybody stick around I guess that we'll see
Well here's a chance for you to get to know the real me
The real me
The real me
The real me
The real me
The real me
The real me
The real me
The real me

Dry my tears it's 5 years since you passed away
I feel so sorry that you died in jail
You couldn't tell that I'm a basket case
Tell you the truth I guess I hide it well
I know it sounds like I was really angry
Now that I got it out I'm feelin better
All that you put on me it really changed me
I guess it's sort of like a love letter
And I'm not even bitter
Why would I act like God aint big
My job is a spitter
Your jobs a quitter
One shot to the liver
But I'm not gonna give up
You was a good man you just sick though
Dealing with the drugs every time you would get low
When I get to heaven ima see you in the presence of a king
Our relationship can get fixed bro

Now I've been fighting insecurities it kills me
If I was open and just honest would you feel me
Would everybody stick around I guess that we'll see
Well here's a chance for you to get to know the real me
The real me
The real me
The real me
The real me
The real me
The real me
The real me
The real me