Lucidity - Missed Calls Lyrics

Yeah
When you call me, I don't answer
Still, you wanna see me, so I burn this down faster
Saw you in the halls, but I'm walkin' right past ya
Wish that I could tell you what I been through in the past year, yeah
All the shame that I keep inside
Sacrificin' for the vices that I keep alive
Tonight I'm livin' my goodbyes, so I stay deprived
And my pride is like a high, plenty in supply
I could never come down, this is all day sippin'
I'm scared that I'll be found if I pray for a minute
Why'd you stick around through the games and the gimmicks
I'm hopin' that I crash, doin' fifty over limits
Gave me everything, so I gave you silence
I'm a mess, and I blame it on the mileage
Got the pressure but we never saw the diamonds
Now we're measured by the sorrow and the sirens

Yeah
Let you down and it's my fault
Cause I drown in the sins that my soul wants
Think about you every day, and I'm feelin' lost
I got so much I could say, keep it in my thoughts
Cause I got no one to pray for me
What's your problem, why you stay with me
I'm not worth it in the end
Still you call me and you want in this again

Yeah
I don't want you with somebody else
I'm the reason this is done, but that doesn't help
I'll just wait a couple months, 'til your love fades
Thought I was the one, but I hurt you in enough ways
It's a cycle that I go through, feeling like I broke you
The worst part is I feel like the only one who knows you
But I question the intentions that I have
Maybe I'm afraid of how deep that I'm attached
I could take a plane to another city
In Seattle with the rain, maybe that'll fit me
Keep a battle in my brain 'til I turn sixty
I don't wanna see the day you no longer miss me
This is like a poison
Like the voices in my head, makin' bad choices
Wish I was pickin' you instead
But it's over and it's done, living my decision
I'm a sinner only hoping I could be forgiven

Yeah
Let you down and it's my fault
Cause I drown in the sins that my soul wants
Think about you every day, and I'm feelin' lost
I got so much I could say, keep it in my thoughts
Cause I got no one to pray for me
What's your problem, why you stay with me
I'm not worth it in the end
Still you call me and you want in this again