Lucidity - Just Hold Me Lyrics

Just hold me, just hold me
I want you by my side but you never tried
Just hold me, hold me
I want you back
Twenty years and I'm still feeling alone
I don't think I'm strong enough to do this shit on my own
And my parents still alive, but they ain't hittin' my phone
Then again, I couldn't wait to get up outta their home
I'm not adapting well
I look at everyone else, and feel like
How could I connect when I'm not loving myself
How could I not be stressed when I feel destined to fail
It's like my only solution to put my head on the rails
Been in love a hundred times, it's a place that I fell
So my heart is fucking beat and I don't know if it's me
A fucking freak, moving solo so my pride has decreased
Head is down, my heart is hollow, wishing I was deceased
I don't have a single answer why they take the door
Maybe everyone will miss me when I hit the floor
I never had a little rain, only thunderstorms
When she left me, really fucked me up into my core
Just hold me, just hold me
I want you by my side but you never tried
Just hold me, hold me
I want you back
Yeah
Lost a girl cause I'm addicted to lust
And to top it off, I never learned to give her my trust
Got these women with no faces cause they easy to fuck
But what's the point when I ain't sleeping with somebody I love
I'm taking time to adjust
To the world but it's fucked
Suicide the only answer cause I know that I'm stuck
It's getting rough, up at two am and working at six
I believe there's not a spot inside the Earth I could fit
So I take another fix, can't take another hit
Been so high so I don't have to face the fact that I exist
I'm sick of having fantasies of loading up a clip
Someone that relates, I'm not knowing how to get
I'm too anxious
Worried 'bout the future being dangerous
I know what needs to happen but I'm skipping through the pages
I really can't survive when they giving me these wages
Lock myself inside, I'm fucking tired of these phases
Just hold me, just hold me
I want you by my side but you never tried
Just hold me, hold me
I want you back

Just hold me, just hold me
I want you by my side but you never tried
Just hold me, hold me
I want you back
Twenty years and I'm still feeling alone
I don't think I'm strong enough to do this shit on my own
And my parents still alive, but they ain't hittin' my phone
Then again, I couldn't wait to get up outta their home
I'm not adapting well
I look at everyone else, and feel like
How could I connect when I'm not loving myself
How could I not be stressed when I feel destined to fail
It's like my only solution to put my head on the rails
Been in love a hundred times, it's a place that I fell
So my heart is fucking beat and I don't know if it's me
A fucking freak, moving solo so my pride has decreased
Head is down, my heart is hollow, wishing I was deceased
I don't have a single answer why they take the door
Maybe everyone will miss me when I hit the floor
I never had a little rain, only thunderstorms
When she left me, really fucked me up into my core
Just hold me, just hold me
I want you by my side but you never tried
Just hold me, hold me
I want you back
Yeah
Lost a girl cause I'm addicted to lust
And to top it off, I never learned to give her my trust
Got these women with no faces cause they easy to fuck
But what's the point when I ain't sleeping with somebody I love
I'm taking time to adjust
To the world but it's fucked
Suicide the only answer cause I know that I'm stuck
It's getting rough, up at two am and working at six
I believe there's not a spot inside the Earth I could fit
So I take another fix, can't take another hit
Been so high so I don't have to face the fact that I exist
I'm sick of having fantasies of loading up a clip
Someone that relates, I'm not knowing how to get
I'm too anxious
Worried 'bout the future being dangerous
I know what needs to happen but I'm skipping through the pages
I really can't survive when they giving me these wages
Lock myself inside, I'm fucking tired of these phases
Just hold me, just hold me
I want you by my side but you never tried
Just hold me, hold me
I want you back