Lucidity, CapsCtrl - Leaving You For Lyrics

Fill up my body with liquor and drugs
I don't know how to be happy
I know how to keep me from feeling it, leaving me numb
I'm staying up til the sun
Only the rain ever comes
Look at my face and I'm done
Lately I don't give a fuck
Can't even tell if it's me when I put up a front
You don't want nothing to do with me
I try to be real but it's new to me
I got depression and don't learn my lessons
But can't even say what it do to me
You shouldn't be tryna get through to me
Cause I don't want nobody losing me
Tonight I got so much to feel, I'm losing myself
And I keep on abusing me
I don't want no one to cry when I die so tonight
I'ma keep what I'm feeling inside
I used to think there was someone for me
Now I know that they leave and I'm not gonna try
Now I'm in love with the medicine
She had me stuck in my head again
I made a promise to work on myself
I blink and she back in my bed again, yeah
Wish I could say that I love you but too much that I put above you
Thinking bout cuffin' but I don't feel nothing inside
I promise that I'll never judge you
I'm way too sick of myself
So how am I supposed to believe that you want me around
Sick of the sound of my voice, the shit that I choose
But maybe it's better with you
Maybe the world ain't got shit for me
Cause I don't think no one is missing me
This shit is a mess, the weight on my chest
I'm living and breathing my misery
How could I take what you give to me
Cause I don't see nobody fitting me
I don't got nowhere to go anymore
All that you want is to say that I'm yours
All that you wanted is me, so the fuck did I leave
What the fuck do I need anymore
Tell me the fuck am I seeing you for
No way to tell what I'm leaving you for
All that you wanted is me, so the fuck did I leave
What the fuck do I need anymore
Tell me the fuck am I seeing you for
No way to tell what I'm leaving you for

Fill up my body with liquor and drugs
I don't know how to be happy
I know how to keep me from feeling it, leaving me numb
I'm staying up til the sun
Only the rain ever comes
Look at my face and I'm done
Lately I don't give a fuck
Can't even tell if it's me when I put up a front
You don't want nothing to do with me
I try to be real but it's new to me
I got depression and don't learn my lessons
But can't even say what it do to me
You shouldn't be tryna get through to me
Cause I don't want nobody losing me
Tonight I got so much to feel, I'm losing myself
And I keep on abusing me
I don't want no one to cry when I die so tonight
I'ma keep what I'm feeling inside
I used to think there was someone for me
Now I know that they leave and I'm not gonna try
Now I'm in love with the medicine
She had me stuck in my head again
I made a promise to work on myself
I blink and she back in my bed again, yeah
Wish I could say that I love you but too much that I put above you
Thinking bout cuffin' but I don't feel nothing inside
I promise that I'll never judge you
I'm way too sick of myself
So how am I supposed to believe that you want me around
Sick of the sound of my voice, the shit that I choose
But maybe it's better with you
Maybe the world ain't got shit for me
Cause I don't think no one is missing me
This shit is a mess, the weight on my chest
I'm living and breathing my misery
How could I take what you give to me
Cause I don't see nobody fitting me
I don't got nowhere to go anymore
All that you want is to say that I'm yours
All that you wanted is me, so the fuck did I leave
What the fuck do I need anymore
Tell me the fuck am I seeing you for
No way to tell what I'm leaving you for
All that you wanted is me, so the fuck did I leave
What the fuck do I need anymore
Tell me the fuck am I seeing you for
No way to tell what I'm leaving you for