Love Jai - you wouldnt miss this Lyrics

Stare out thru my window
Im searching for something
I know your out there
Don't run away
Its a quarter after one
Why do i always feel alone
Disappointed idk what to do
Or where it all went wrong
Im a mess
I hope i clean it up one day
Cuz im so stressed
And disappointed in myself
I push away
Everyone that love don't stay i feel a million ways
Everyday the same i wanna die
Don't look at me amazed
That mean you aint hearing me
My aunt keep calling asking me if i'm okay
Ill lie right to her face
But i'm miles on miles away
I fake a smile like i'm okay
Yesterday is not today
But i feel the same as i did last week
And i'm on my knees yeah oh
Begging out to the lord that he hear me now
I know we never talk a lot but your on speed dial
I told my dad that i loved him last week
And i cant even get a reply that hurts me
I feel like i'm so fucking dumb & irks me
When i was young i thought this world was for me
But i was naive and narcissistic
Even if i died you wouldn't miss this
Can somebody tell me
Is there something out there oh
I know this aint healthy
But its the only way i know
I need someone to help me
Cause its the only way i know

Stare out thru my window
Im searching for something
I know your out there
Don't run away
Its a quarter after one
Why do i always feel alone
Disappointed idk what to do
Or where it all went wrong
Im a mess
I hope i clean it up one day
Cuz im so stressed
And disappointed in myself
I push away
Everyone that love don't stay i feel a million ways
Everyday the same i wanna die
Don't look at me amazed
That mean you aint hearing me
My aunt keep calling asking me if i'm okay
Ill lie right to her face
But i'm miles on miles away
I fake a smile like i'm okay
Yesterday is not today
But i feel the same as i did last week
And i'm on my knees yeah oh
Begging out to the lord that he hear me now
I know we never talk a lot but your on speed dial
I told my dad that i loved him last week
And i cant even get a reply that hurts me
I feel like i'm so fucking dumb & irks me
When i was young i thought this world was for me
But i was naive and narcissistic
Even if i died you wouldn't miss this
Can somebody tell me
Is there something out there oh
I know this aint healthy
But its the only way i know
I need someone to help me
Cause its the only way i know