LNL - Funeral Lyrics

I just been tryin to live my life
Fighting pain that I can't keep inside
Trying to find the light that pass on by
Keep up on another just to medicate
Pouring it all up just to pass the days
Everything I need just to drift away
I don't need no reason to explain myself
I just feel alone an dont need no help
All the nights prayed but I hid in stealth

Don't pray at my funeral
Just celebrate do what I didn't do
Keeping it moving an keep it cool
Look in the sky if you need the proof
Count all ya blessings an teach the youth
Said we were peasant I need the truth
Kicking doors to collect the loot
Paying the bills just to keep a roof
I needed room
Sweeping these drugs wit broom
Calling it quits in mood
Downing a bottle
Ignoring the problems
Until they were hollow
Ant calling it quits
Then walk wit a wobble
Said should I pray
An I need an option
Count up the days
No one would answer
Look at my ways
It kills like cancer
Life in a daze
Look at my eyes off haze
Rolling another
Smoking until I go under
Drowning my soul till I plunder
Taking a life I ant wanna
Try to move on
But seems that I cant
Angels an demons are
Pulling on me
Look in the mirror don't even no me
Such an appearance but looking phony
All of my life I just felt so lonely
All of my life I just felt so lonely
All of my life I just tried to own it
Who said I needed more then a guidance
Left me with weights but ant think to spot it
Never fall an I never will
Until the phone rings on that line
When I answer I will not cry
When I fly is when I'll rise

I just been tryin to live my life
Fighting pain that I can't keep inside
Trying to find the light that pass on by
Keep up on another just to medicate
Pouring it all up just to pass the days
Everything I need just to drift away
I don't need no reason to explain myself
I just feel alone an don't need no help
All the nights prayed but I hid in stealth
Fade into the dark is how I live
Bleeding out my heart when I try give
All of my nights that I had to sin