LittyGhoul - Big Boys Don't Cry Lyrics

Mama said big boys don't cry
But thugs shed tears when homies die
Please tell me why
I wanna take my  life 
Can't  stay in one piece 
I try but it consumes me 
Want to stop breathing 
Goodbye, I'm leaving 
My aunty Cherie she gone have to cherish memories we had
How she finna tell Azenae That GJ passed
Think about my brother, he gone have to comfort my mother
My father gone lose his eldest son ain't gone be another 
God only knows about grannies they'll fall to they knees
Crying out to the heavens, no God no please 
Grandpops don't think he'd ever stop mourning 
My cousins gone feel some type of way when they wake up in the  morning 
What about James, Chad, Calvin, Keshav and Tameez
After a month will they still remember me
My homie Chad lost his Dad he ain't been the same
Tell me how he gone cope if someone else he loves passes away
Mama said big boys don't cry
But thugs shed tears when homies die
Please tell me why
I wanna take my  life 
Can't  stay in one piece 
I try but it consumes me 
Want to stop breathing 
Goodbye, I'm leaving 
No, Sachen he gone start asking
What if he just hit me up
Then I'd still be there laughing and smiling but
I never really was happy 
Mood up and down less hills, more valleys 
Extension cord around my neck attached to the fan
Jumped from the bed but it came loose broke down then
Seventeen in my room with music blasting 
Popped like thirty pills to stop my heart from feeling something 
These pain killers supposed to kill the pain but they be killing me 
Addicted to the rush of toxic love chase the Dopamine 
Now I'm never sober, never crystal clean 
Wish I could start over at this very moment I don't feel like a human being
Mama said big boys don't cry
But thugs shed tears when homies die
Please tell me why
I wanna take my  life 
Can't  stay in one piece 
I try but it consumes me 
Want to stop breathing 
Goodbye, I'm leaving 

Mama said big boys don't cry
But thugs shed tears when homies die
Please tell me why
I wanna take my  life 
Can't  stay in one piece 
I try but it consumes me 
Want to stop breathing 
Goodbye, I'm leaving 
My aunty Cherie she gone have to cherish memories we had
How she finna tell Azenae That GJ passed
Think about my brother, he gone have to comfort my mother
My father gone lose his eldest son ain't gone be another 
God only knows about grannies they'll fall to they knees
Crying out to the heavens, no God no please 
Grandpops don't think he'd ever stop mourning 
My cousins gone feel some type of way when they wake up in the  morning 
What about James, Chad, Calvin, Keshav and Tameez
After a month will they still remember me
My homie Chad lost his Dad he ain't been the same
Tell me how he gone cope if someone else he loves passes away
Mama said big boys don't cry
But thugs shed tears when homies die
Please tell me why
I wanna take my  life 
Can't  stay in one piece 
I try but it consumes me 
Want to stop breathing 
Goodbye, I'm leaving 
No, Sachen he gone start asking
What if he just hit me up
Then I'd still be there laughing and smiling but
I never really was happy 
Mood up and down less hills, more valleys 
Extension cord around my neck attached to the fan
Jumped from the bed but it came loose broke down then
Seventeen in my room with music blasting 
Popped like thirty pills to stop my heart from feeling something 
These pain killers supposed to kill the pain but they be killing me 
Addicted to the rush of toxic love chase the Dopamine 
Now I'm never sober, never crystal clean 
Wish I could start over at this very moment I don't feel like a human being
Mama said big boys don't cry
But thugs shed tears when homies die
Please tell me why
I wanna take my  life 
Can't  stay in one piece 
I try but it consumes me 
Want to stop breathing 
Goodbye, I'm leaving