Lil JJ Reynolds - Crying Inside Lyrics

Still Hanging on in this reality of pressure that holds
My opportunities with misery of stories untold
They got exposed (Now my status is alone and cold)
With no more dreams to go after cause they went up in smoke
I still pray for strength to get me out of this state
Of mental illness that shifts my feeling's arrow to hate
Mixed with the mood swings on level 1 to make mistakes
That goes on for a lifetime with no breaks
I can't stop making tears that drop (Behind my fears)
On top of all the stares that flop on my career
Going thru situations (Alone) with no single one that cares
Or shares recovery when you need a repair
You got no choice but to disappear to the outside
With the victims that throw life in the gutter with suicide
Cause they rather be angels up in the sky to fly above the world
That's the reason why their crying inside
I'm dying from life
And feeling so alone
No one by my side
And nobody knows
The pain that stands beside me
I'm crying inside
Inside
Inside
Inside
I'm crying inside
I'm crying inside
Stuck in my feelings of dread
Next to my skeleton heads under my bed
Forming nightmares that separated my fears for meds
Came close to blindness from the air in the sky that became foggy
While my demons were smoking behind my eyes that were drowsy
Too many stares (Double-Teaming) my reflections of privacy
For all of them to see why I was stressing in agony
I've been thru so much (Hell) ever since I was born
Which makes me (Question) confusion as to why the hell was I born
To live thru stressing disorders
Why is my stress a disorder that I can't handle?
Cause I'm getting more than less from bipolar
What has happened to me cause I'm not the same person that used to smile
Now it's buried underneath all the hurting that I had to go thru
Cause my sins (Erupted) physically on me
Which made the curse (Erase my happiness) and the people that know me
It's like I'm dead cause the brain (Inside me) passed from my dread
What can I do cause I'm too sick in the head from crying inside
It's like
I'm dying from life
And feeling so alone
No one by my side
And nobody knows
The pain that stands beside me
I'm crying inside
Inside
Inside
Inside
I'm crying inside
I'm crying inside

Still Hanging on in this reality of pressure that holds
My opportunities with misery of stories untold
They got exposed (Now my status is alone and cold)
With no more dreams to go after cause they went up in smoke
I still pray for strength to get me out of this state
Of mental illness that shifts my feeling's arrow to hate
Mixed with the mood swings on level 1 to make mistakes
That goes on for a lifetime with no breaks
I can't stop making tears that drop (Behind my fears)
On top of all the stares that flop on my career
Going thru situations (Alone) with no single one that cares
Or shares recovery when you need a repair
You got no choice but to disappear to the outside
With the victims that throw life in the gutter with suicide
Cause they rather be angels up in the sky to fly above the world
That's the reason why their crying inside
I'm dying from life
And feeling so alone
No one by my side
And nobody knows
The pain that stands beside me
I'm crying inside
Inside
Inside
Inside
I'm crying inside
I'm crying inside
Stuck in my feelings of dread
Next to my skeleton heads under my bed
Forming nightmares that separated my fears for meds
Came close to blindness from the air in the sky that became foggy
While my demons were smoking behind my eyes that were drowsy
Too many stares (Double-Teaming) my reflections of privacy
For all of them to see why I was stressing in agony
I've been thru so much (Hell) ever since I was born
Which makes me (Question) confusion as to why the hell was I born
To live thru stressing disorders
Why is my stress a disorder that I can't handle?
Cause I'm getting more than less from bipolar
What has happened to me cause I'm not the same person that used to smile
Now it's buried underneath all the hurting that I had to go thru
Cause my sins (Erupted) physically on me
Which made the curse (Erase my happiness) and the people that know me
It's like I'm dead cause the brain (Inside me) passed from my dread
What can I do cause I'm too sick in the head from crying inside
It's like
I'm dying from life
And feeling so alone
No one by my side
And nobody knows
The pain that stands beside me
I'm crying inside
Inside
Inside
Inside
I'm crying inside
I'm crying inside