Lil JJ Reynolds - Backwards Mind Lyrics

A backwards mind
Mixed with lost thoughts and a lost past
Makes you go crazy
That's a backwards mind
Life
Mind twisted but I'm just too stubborn to fix it
Just another witness to see my life get twisted
I'm sick of this world, (Cause I'm always living in sickness)
Feeling so distant, (Like I'm non-existent)
All my life I was an square, (That didn't fit anywhere)
Cause, (No-one cares, when my tears fall)
I got the mind of an alien that doesn't exist
I couldn't fit cause I was different
From the crowds that would judge me, (Everywhere I went)
I was broken up inside so I had to re-invent
But the outside world, (Was tearing me apart)
By ending my career so I couldn't restart
I needed some help, (I was an wounded shark)
That needed help finding light cause I was in the dark all my life
And my mind wasn't right
Leading me to the wrong directions, (It was nothing in sight)
So what's the point of this life? (Why do I put up a fight?)
Why do I always have problems sleeping at night?
Why do I act like I'm alright when deep inside, (I'm going crazy)
Feeling suicidal man can anybody save me, (And my backwards mind?)
Promised dreams got lost when I lost myself
Been confidential and I've always kept my thoughts to myself
When I failed, (It was nobody's fault but myself)
But I just wouldn't talk when I needed some help
Cause I felt like I could handle everything by myself
But I couldn't, (So I tried to make a plan for myself)
But It backfired, (Then I flew right on the shelf)
I felt extraordinary pain (It was bad for my health)
Cause I kept it inside, (It was destroying my mind)
Keeping me from writing thoughts, (I was lost and blind)
I felt bad for myself, (Then I started not to care)
Like the only thing for me to do was disappear
I was an broke man, (Surrounded by rich pioneers)
That looks down on people like me with a stare
This world won't accept a person with an disability
They look at us and say that we don't have the ability
To do anything, (Cause we don't get respectability)
I'm physically insane, (Bipolar is killing me)
I'm literally a mess, (Dealing with the stress)
Moving side to side like an game of chess
I feel the pain in my chest, (Will it be my last breath?)
Somebody come save me cause I just want rest in peace
Without an backwards mind

A backwards mind
Mixed with lost thoughts and a lost past
Makes you go crazy
That's a backwards mind
Life
Mind twisted but I'm just too stubborn to fix it
Just another witness to see my life get twisted
I'm sick of this world, (Cause I'm always living in sickness)
Feeling so distant, (Like I'm non-existent)
All my life I was an square, (That didn't fit anywhere)
Cause, (No-one cares, when my tears fall)
I got the mind of an alien that doesn't exist
I couldn't fit cause I was different
From the crowds that would judge me, (Everywhere I went)
I was broken up inside so I had to re-invent
But the outside world, (Was tearing me apart)
By ending my career so I couldn't restart
I needed some help, (I was an wounded shark)
That needed help finding light cause I was in the dark all my life
And my mind wasn't right
Leading me to the wrong directions, (It was nothing in sight)
So what's the point of this life? (Why do I put up a fight?)
Why do I always have problems sleeping at night?
Why do I act like I'm alright when deep inside, (I'm going crazy)
Feeling suicidal man can anybody save me, (And my backwards mind?)
Promised dreams got lost when I lost myself
Been confidential and I've always kept my thoughts to myself
When I failed, (It was nobody's fault but myself)
But I just wouldn't talk when I needed some help
Cause I felt like I could handle everything by myself
But I couldn't, (So I tried to make a plan for myself)
But It backfired, (Then I flew right on the shelf)
I felt extraordinary pain (It was bad for my health)
Cause I kept it inside, (It was destroying my mind)
Keeping me from writing thoughts, (I was lost and blind)
I felt bad for myself, (Then I started not to care)
Like the only thing for me to do was disappear
I was an broke man, (Surrounded by rich pioneers)
That looks down on people like me with a stare
This world won't accept a person with an disability
They look at us and say that we don't have the ability
To do anything, (Cause we don't get respectability)
I'm physically insane, (Bipolar is killing me)
I'm literally a mess, (Dealing with the stress)
Moving side to side like an game of chess
I feel the pain in my chest, (Will it be my last breath?)
Somebody come save me cause I just want rest in peace
Without an backwards mind