lessur - hometown Lyrics

It’s weird how you can live your whole life hating an old place
Until you have nothing but strangers up in your face
And your heartbeat just continues to do nothing but race
When you realize you’re alone but I guess within my case
I should probably be thankful I’m even inside of a house
But it’s hard when my bed is full of fucking air
And the shower smells like copper and I can’t drink up from the sink
I’ll just tell myself the move was worth it I’m not sure what to think
Other than about the time I had talk inside my car
With myself, yeah I was fucking crying against the door
And I’d love to say this is temporary but I would be lying
To myself cause since age ten it’s really just been thoughts of dying

I’m stuck in place yet my legs can move

Yeah I’ve been down
Kinda miss my hometown
Put it in my rear view
Hoping for some brand new
Yeah I’ve been down
Kinda miss my hometown
Put it in my rear view
Hoping for some brand new

Last couple years my hearts been vacant in my chest
And unfortunately there’s something I should probably confess
I’ve been thinking that a shot into the depths of my brain
Is the only way I’ll ever alleviate all of the pain
And I’m sure it’s fucking detrimental to my health
Writing about shit that I would rather think about in stealth
Cause I always say that I don’t wanna talk about my problems
But I sit around and write about them when I hit rock bottom

Falling asleep to the sound of rain
Falling against my room’s window pane

These days the only fucking thing
Keeping me alive is the one percent my brain can bring
Maybe I’m a little fucked up inside of the head
Always finding ways to rhyme about how I wanna be dead

Yeah I’ve been down
Kinda miss my hometown
Put it in my rear view
Hoping for some brand new
Yeah I’ve been down
Kinda miss my hometown
Put it in my rear view
Hoping for some brand new