lessur, GrimmSage - anhedonia Lyrics

My life‘s in a peril state I’m looking for some bliss
Cause lately I’ve been stuck hopeless inside of the abyss
That is the inner depths of my brain so I write and I complain
About the bland life that I’m living but I’m the one to blame
Cause I always end up treating myself like a piece of shit
So I pack a couple bowls and then I take a couple hits
I don’t wanna feel a fucking thing trust me yeah that’s the truth
So I smoke a couple grams til I am higher than the roof yeah
My life‘s in a peril state I feel like giving up
As the bills and stress begin to overfill my fucking cup
I’m worried bout my future and everything that it will hold
Will I always be a loser what surprises will unfold
Will I ever get better and get past these dark thoughts
Staring at an ocean wondering how I’ll ever get across
Knowing I’ll never be able to without somebody’s hand
I guess happiness is something that I’ll never understand yeah

Happiness is something that I’ll never understand
Yeah, happiness is something that I’ll never understand

Even at my best there’s this feeling deep inside
Existential dread, inside my head, awake in bed
Thinking bout what would’ve happened if I had died
In every near death situation that I’ve ever had

Even at my best there’s this feeling deep inside
Existential dread, inside my head, awake in bed
Thinking bout what would’ve happened if I had died
In every near death situation that I’ve ever had

Devil may cry everyone lies
I’ve been slaying demons in my fucking mind
I can see your soul see it in your eyes
Can you see mine can you see mine yeah
I put my back against the wall so I would never fall
I looked inside the mirror and I don’t know what the fuck I saw
I put my back against the wall so I would never fall
I told you everything was fine but really I was dying inside

But really I was dying inside
Yeah

Even at my best there’s this feeling deep inside
Existential dread, inside my head, awake in bed
Thinking bout what would’ve happened if I had died
In every near death situation that I’ve ever had

Even at my best there’s this feeling deep inside
Existential dread, inside my head, awake in bed
Thinking bout what would’ve happened if I had died
In every near death situation that I’ve ever had

Even at my best there’s this feeling deep inside
Existential dread, inside my head, awake in bed
Thinking bout what would’ve happened if I had died
In every near death situation that I’ve ever had