Kaus, Ms. Sara D. - Sweetness Lyrics

Inconclusive conclusions of undefined definitions
Have got me noticing patterns that go beyond repetition
I mean something in addition to the ultimate paradox
The kind of time present everywhere except for your clocks
You couldn't put in a box, the everything that I see
The everyone that I am, while simultaneously
Never being at all what you would say could exist
The one equation unresolved my math or scientists
My damn psychiatrist looking at me all strangely
Pumping me full of drugs, and getting paid just to change me
Cause they think that I'm crazy and don't want me to flip
While I'm permanently stuck inside the ultimate trip
I don't know how to quit, ripples in life are immense
When everything is connected, and you're trying to make sense
Of any and all the madness but the truth is intense
You're comfortable in your prison, I'm out here hopping the fence
I am over the logic and what the world has to offer
I'm sick of sticking to scripts, I'm finally being the author
So I be making up rules and the tools are my linguistics
I live my life like I'm a little masochistic
The concept's simplistic, thoughts are sadistic
And finding peace of mind in misery is realistic
I say it's odd, I illustrate characteristics
A bipolar, schizophrenic kid who is autistic
I've risked it, and lost it, the process consisted
Of unexplainable shit due to limited vocabulary
So exhausted, with this I'm consistent
So go ahead and play your game, I'd rather be imaginary
I sit and smile cause this state is only temporary
After a while you think it's cozy in the cemetery
And I don't mean I'm in a rush to go
But at the end of it all it might be nice to know
And as a matter of fact, I got a space on my wall
The perfect place for a trophy if I had one at all
You can stick to the chase, act like you are the Wiseman
In a world of irrelevance while I'm earning the Heisman
And I'm like god damn, that's the closest to freedom
Of anybody that's battling they're emotions to beat 'em
And disregard them and treat them as if validity's based
On something broken thus projecting what we are as a race
Had a bit of a taste and saw as bad as it gets
But I acknowledge everything in this place has opposites
I can't just stop at this, when thinking about forever
So I consider the pieces and try to put them together
Intricate and so clever, you couldn't measure the concepts
Embark on endeavors out of a Rubiks cube complex
And all of it's nonsense, but sometimes it's beautiful
And you want to take part, and participate when it's suitable, oh
Wait a minute, contradicting myself
A clear sign of insanity and lacking in mental health
I only do what I'm able and pay attention to sound
So let them throw out their labels, my mind is my playground
I do away with the structure, disobey a command
And when my lungs end up ruptured, still I try to expand
I embrace negativity while on the other hand
I experience a love that you could never understand
To put it mildly, it's complicated
So I've decided to leave it, try to appreciate it
Even if words I've stated will prove a mindset torn
I keep invested, make the best of it, and shatter the norm

Inconclusive conclusions of undefined definitions
Have got me noticing patterns that go beyond repetition
I mean something in addition to the ultimate paradox
The kind of time present everywhere except for your clocks
You couldn't put in a box, the everything that I see
The everyone that I am, while simultaneously
Never being at all what you would say could exist
The one equation unresolved my math or scientists
My damn psychiatrist looking at me all strangely
Pumping me full of drugs, and getting paid just to change me
Cause they think that I'm crazy and don't want me to flip
While I'm permanently stuck inside the ultimate trip
I don't know how to quit, ripples in life are immense
When everything is connected, and you're trying to make sense
Of any and all the madness but the truth is intense
You're comfortable in your prison, I'm out here hopping the fence
I am over the logic and what the world has to offer
I'm sick of sticking to scripts, I'm finally being the author
So I be making up rules and the tools are my linguistics
I live my life like I'm a little masochistic
The concept's simplistic, thoughts are sadistic
And finding peace of mind in misery is realistic
I say it's odd, I illustrate characteristics
A bipolar, schizophrenic kid who is autistic
I've risked it, and lost it, the process consisted
Of unexplainable shit due to limited vocabulary
So exhausted, with this I'm consistent
So go ahead and play your game, I'd rather be imaginary
I sit and smile cause this state is only temporary
After a while you think it's cozy in the cemetery
And I don't mean I'm in a rush to go
But at the end of it all it might be nice to know
And as a matter of fact, I got a space on my wall
The perfect place for a trophy if I had one at all
You can stick to the chase, act like you are the Wiseman
In a world of irrelevance while I'm earning the Heisman
And I'm like god damn, that's the closest to freedom
Of anybody that's battling they're emotions to beat 'em
And disregard them and treat them as if validity's based
On something broken thus projecting what we are as a race
Had a bit of a taste and saw as bad as it gets
But I acknowledge everything in this place has opposites
I can't just stop at this, when thinking about forever
So I consider the pieces and try to put them together
Intricate and so clever, you couldn't measure the concepts
Embark on endeavors out of a Rubiks cube complex
And all of it's nonsense, but sometimes it's beautiful
And you want to take part, and participate when it's suitable, oh
Wait a minute, contradicting myself
A clear sign of insanity and lacking in mental health
I only do what I'm able and pay attention to sound
So let them throw out their labels, my mind is my playground
I do away with the structure, disobey a command
And when my lungs end up ruptured, still I try to expand
I embrace negativity while on the other hand
I experience a love that you could never understand
To put it mildly, it's complicated
So I've decided to leave it, try to appreciate it
Even if words I've stated will prove a mindset torn
I keep invested, make the best of it, and shatter the norm