KaeDee - Accept Me Lyrics

Alright allow me please to interject
Appreciate your praise and adulation
Truly do, but there's a disconnect
Between myself and who my mirror mis-reflects
I walk along this river bed and see beyond
Feel him bouncing buzzing by my side
While I stay bitter, yet
Regardless I'm just keeping on
Quick to blame the world around me
Really it's just me myself who treats me wrong
My mental scope is too short, my inner voice it cuts deep
Learn the lesson, Ru Paul
If I don't love myself can I love you too and in turn expect you to love me back
The cycle keeps on going, slowly revolving
Hoping something cracks
I don't really know what the fuck I want
I don't really know who the fuck I am
I see the world through 2 eyes but dual minds
When ones enough doing jumping jacks
And I'm in that spiral
Talk down to myself, compare to my idols
But they ain't worth shit too
So I'm back in that cycle
Making it worse to live through
Telling myself it's my fault
And with every word my pitfall
And now I'm thinking why do
I deal all this hurt to my mental
And all this self talk
It's like I'm being guided through this Hell, walk
On every word like it's a stone that's burning
People all around but, it's still a lonely journey
I address you how I address myself
When I upset you, I'm upset myself
How can you respect me, don't respect myself
Can't see you come accept me, don't accept myself
Fuck, I've been spending all my life just looking outward
Seeking validation, reach my hand and waiting
But they leave me sad, ashamed like
I'm not worth connecting to
And if I am, then bless I guess
It's only just by accident
I lower standards, set
The precedent to minimise all my anxiousness
Despite the mounting evidence
I deep it, now I'm hating
On my own self, know my worth is more
But still protect that child within
Because him I know well
No pity parties, sit here starving
Need that food for thought to feed my soul
And neutralise the bitter parts and
Keep it moving, more like need to go
People disappoint
That's more a need to know
Keeps me up at night
That's no more sleep for bro
Carry that with you thinking bruv
Nobody loves you fuck it's more like they're just stuck with you
Fuck you you little man
Men surpass you in every manner
You're lucky there's a woman
That wants to marry ya
Look at your skinny self in that mirror
Fucking embarrassing
And all this self talk
It's like I'm being guided through this Hell, walk
On every word like it's a stone that's burning
People all around but, it's still a lonely journey
I address you how I address myself
When I upset you, I'm upset myself
How can you respect me, don't respect myself
Can't see you come accept me, don't accept myself
Despite your words I often disconnect
The pain will pass, the sun will shine, that's cool
But please don't condescend
By nature I'm an optimist but not to ends
That lead me down a path that's truly falsified
Haunted by my demons and my mind is like my poltergeist
My partner wants a rock it's pending
Trust me that's not something I would often mention
But life in parts can have me feeling like some kinda Martian
In disguise I laugh and cry but can't
Help but feel i'm in the wrong dimension
Maybe the nature of my being is dictating what they're seeing so I'm ghosted but it's long I'm stepping
Forward out their toxic mentions and
Regardless what you think about my lack of strong direction
2 words, fuck you
Truth hurts, it must do
Said my piece now block the sender
Fortify my body mind and spirit
Higher living and unblock my centre
If you just stop pretending
Maybe we could drop the tension
My inner life it suffers when I'm misaligned
I dip and slide from situations
If my intuition picks up any semblance of some bitter vibes, if the feeling's right, it's quick to mention
I've been working on myself
Cliche, but I've been hurting less as well
Learnt my lesson walking further into Hell
Realise the burn won't last forever
Cuz I'm stronger than I thought, I'm in control
So take the Devil yeah cuz we can burn him
Burn his home, and burn his shit as well
And all this self talk
It's like I'm being guided through this Hell, walk
On every word like it's a step to rise on
People all around but, I think I'll stick to my guns
I address you how I address myself
When I compliment you, confident myself
You don't respect me? I respect myself
Don't accept me? Calm, cuz I accept myself

Alright allow me please to interject
Appreciate your praise and adulation
Truly do, but there's a disconnect
Between myself and who my mirror mis-reflects
I walk along this river bed and see beyond
Feel him bouncing buzzing by my side
While I stay bitter, yet
Regardless I'm just keeping on
Quick to blame the world around me
Really it's just me myself who treats me wrong
My mental scope is too short, my inner voice it cuts deep
Learn the lesson, Ru Paul
If I don't love myself can I love you too and in turn expect you to love me back
The cycle keeps on going, slowly revolving
Hoping something cracks
I don't really know what the fuck I want
I don't really know who the fuck I am
I see the world through 2 eyes but dual minds
When ones enough doing jumping jacks
And I'm in that spiral
Talk down to myself, compare to my idols
But they ain't worth shit too
So I'm back in that cycle
Making it worse to live through
Telling myself it's my fault
And with every word my pitfall
And now I'm thinking why do
I deal all this hurt to my mental
And all this self talk
It's like I'm being guided through this Hell, walk
On every word like it's a stone that's burning
People all around but, it's still a lonely journey
I address you how I address myself
When I upset you, I'm upset myself
How can you respect me, don't respect myself
Can't see you come accept me, don't accept myself
Fuck, I've been spending all my life just looking outward
Seeking validation, reach my hand and waiting
But they leave me sad, ashamed like
I'm not worth connecting to
And if I am, then bless I guess
It's only just by accident
I lower standards, set
The precedent to minimise all my anxiousness
Despite the mounting evidence
I deep it, now I'm hating
On my own self, know my worth is more
But still protect that child within
Because him I know well
No pity parties, sit here starving
Need that food for thought to feed my soul
And neutralise the bitter parts and
Keep it moving, more like need to go
People disappoint
That's more a need to know
Keeps me up at night
That's no more sleep for bro
Carry that with you thinking bruv
Nobody loves you fuck it's more like they're just stuck with you
Fuck you you little man
Men surpass you in every manner
You're lucky there's a woman
That wants to marry ya
Look at your skinny self in that mirror
Fucking embarrassing
And all this self talk
It's like I'm being guided through this Hell, walk
On every word like it's a stone that's burning
People all around but, it's still a lonely journey
I address you how I address myself
When I upset you, I'm upset myself
How can you respect me, don't respect myself
Can't see you come accept me, don't accept myself
Despite your words I often disconnect
The pain will pass, the sun will shine, that's cool
But please don't condescend
By nature I'm an optimist but not to ends
That lead me down a path that's truly falsified
Haunted by my demons and my mind is like my poltergeist
My partner wants a rock it's pending
Trust me that's not something I would often mention
But life in parts can have me feeling like some kinda Martian
In disguise I laugh and cry but can't
Help but feel i'm in the wrong dimension
Maybe the nature of my being is dictating what they're seeing so I'm ghosted but it's long I'm stepping
Forward out their toxic mentions and
Regardless what you think about my lack of strong direction
2 words, fuck you
Truth hurts, it must do
Said my piece now block the sender
Fortify my body mind and spirit
Higher living and unblock my centre
If you just stop pretending
Maybe we could drop the tension
My inner life it suffers when I'm misaligned
I dip and slide from situations
If my intuition picks up any semblance of some bitter vibes, if the feeling's right, it's quick to mention
I've been working on myself
Cliche, but I've been hurting less as well
Learnt my lesson walking further into Hell
Realise the burn won't last forever
Cuz I'm stronger than I thought, I'm in control
So take the Devil yeah cuz we can burn him
Burn his home, and burn his shit as well
And all this self talk
It's like I'm being guided through this Hell, walk
On every word like it's a step to rise on
People all around but, I think I'll stick to my guns
I address you how I address myself
When I compliment you, confident myself
You don't respect me? I respect myself
Don't accept me? Calm, cuz I accept myself