John Anthony - Stay Lyrics

I feel I'm back to set up, another path 'cause I let up my guard
Feels like the world around me's collapsin', no matter the weather
This tragic letter I'm writing's actually better
I have to get rid of the past 'cause it ain't lastin' forever
Fuck it with that, I should never let you come back in my life
And no I don't have a vendetta
I just am sick of the times that I let my heart do the talkin'
'Cause I can't have the pressure
What makes you think I won't reach under this mattress and grab my dad's beretta
I think I finally now am givin' in
I would've never predicted this, all of this shit that I've been through
Maybe I just am a little bit different, so what?
Is that ridiculous that I just can't be myself when I'm around you
Not to get into it, but
I've been kicked down and beat, literally been hit with shit
Called an ignorant piece of shit, people label me as a hypocrite like I give a shit
But the sad part about it is, that I really give a shit
'Cause I'm sick of it
So I'll just add you to the list Mrs. I'm always innocent
It's time to put an end to this
I'm done bein' the one who gives everything but he can't get one thing back
And the one thing is love that he never gets so
What a surprise it is, man fuck it, I'm only finger tips away from the edge
Someone just push me off 'cause I'm fuckin' done with all of this shit
'Cause will they ever stay?
Will they ever stay?
No, they will never stay, they just wanna find their own way
But does it go away?
Does it go away?
I hope it goes away, 'cause I can't take this pain away
Think like I'm losin' sight
Can't even tell no more what's wrong or right
No one can just understand what goes on in my human mind
My conscious tellin' me to say goodbye and move aside
No more battlin', you tried, it's just only you and I
I'm fuckin' pukin' every time I think of you, I might
Be dehumanizin' myself and no I'm not doin' fine
I just feel like I am scrutinized from what I do at times
You decide if I'm losin' my mind, I think suicide is my only option
I'm coughin' up this pills, I'm nauseous
I'm knockin' the fuckin' bottle of liquor of the counter and boxin' up all the toxins
I'm detoxin' my way to stop this
I promise I'm not gonna let this shit kill me but it's obviously I don't have a purpose
'Cause without you, I'm worthless
I've heard it so many times and the words are stuck in my head
Has the verdict reached a decision? I'm ready for servin' a murder sentence
'Cause apart of me is dead and deserved it 'cause
'Cause will they ever stay?
Will they ever stay?
No, they will never stay, they just wanna find their own way
But does it go away?
Does it go away?
I hope it goes away, 'cause I can't take this pain away
'Cause when I'm
Fallin' to my knees, beggin' you to stay
I would then just see, apart of me just die
When you go and leave, I hope then you find
What you left on me, one day you will see
Will they ever stay?
Will they ever stay?
No, they will never stay, they just wanna find their own way
But does it go away?
Does it go away?
I hope it goes away, 'cause I can't take this pain away

I feel I'm back to set up, another path 'cause I let up my guard
Feels like the world around me's collapsin', no matter the weather
This tragic letter I'm writing's actually better
I have to get rid of the past 'cause it ain't lastin' forever
Fuck it with that, I should never let you come back in my life
And no I don't have a vendetta
I just am sick of the times that I let my heart do the talkin'
'Cause I can't have the pressure
What makes you think I won't reach under this mattress and grab my dad's beretta
I think I finally now am givin' in
I would've never predicted this, all of this shit that I've been through
Maybe I just am a little bit different, so what?
Is that ridiculous that I just can't be myself when I'm around you
Not to get into it, but
I've been kicked down and beat, literally been hit with shit
Called an ignorant piece of shit, people label me as a hypocrite like I give a shit
But the sad part about it is, that I really give a shit
'Cause I'm sick of it
So I'll just add you to the list Mrs. I'm always innocent
It's time to put an end to this
I'm done bein' the one who gives everything but he can't get one thing back
And the one thing is love that he never gets so
What a surprise it is, man fuck it, I'm only finger tips away from the edge
Someone just push me off 'cause I'm fuckin' done with all of this shit
'Cause will they ever stay?
Will they ever stay?
No, they will never stay, they just wanna find their own way
But does it go away?
Does it go away?
I hope it goes away, 'cause I can't take this pain away
Think like I'm losin' sight
Can't even tell no more what's wrong or right
No one can just understand what goes on in my human mind
My conscious tellin' me to say goodbye and move aside
No more battlin', you tried, it's just only you and I
I'm fuckin' pukin' every time I think of you, I might
Be dehumanizin' myself and no I'm not doin' fine
I just feel like I am scrutinized from what I do at times
You decide if I'm losin' my mind, I think suicide is my only option
I'm coughin' up this pills, I'm nauseous
I'm knockin' the fuckin' bottle of liquor of the counter and boxin' up all the toxins
I'm detoxin' my way to stop this
I promise I'm not gonna let this shit kill me but it's obviously I don't have a purpose
'Cause without you, I'm worthless
I've heard it so many times and the words are stuck in my head
Has the verdict reached a decision? I'm ready for servin' a murder sentence
'Cause apart of me is dead and deserved it 'cause
'Cause will they ever stay?
Will they ever stay?
No, they will never stay, they just wanna find their own way
But does it go away?
Does it go away?
I hope it goes away, 'cause I can't take this pain away
'Cause when I'm
Fallin' to my knees, beggin' you to stay
I would then just see, apart of me just die
When you go and leave, I hope then you find
What you left on me, one day you will see
Will they ever stay?
Will they ever stay?
No, they will never stay, they just wanna find their own way
But does it go away?
Does it go away?
I hope it goes away, 'cause I can't take this pain away