Jadan Echo - Wish It Was Easy Lyrics

I wish it was easy to say the truth for one fucking time
Where I didn't have to run and hide
Behind all the music I make saying I'm fine
Man I lie way too many times
I shouldn't even try to say I'm in love with her
Cause she'll not even say bye
Cause it won't be the same
If we repeat what happened before it's all a game
She says she loves and cares about me
I don't think it's the same
I don't gotta test fate
To feel bubbled in cause I'm number two in her brain, yeah
Wish it was easy to figure out how to move on
We get older, she's terrified, and I don't belong
I can't replace her, I've tried, in so many of my songs
I hope she never hears this ride of emotions I've been on
I said last summer I won't mess up again
But look at us now I see no end
We just try to be friends, while my demons come in
I don't think we'll meet again but let's have a discussion
I wish it was easy to keep having hope I'll survive
Wish I didn't have to make up all of these lies
That I'll see her in front of me and live together at last
It's fucking depressing being stuck in the past
Wish it was easy to know the future of all of this
Wish I didn't think I'ma die young and not have a kid
Yeah I'm losing it and outta my mind
But you don't fucking care
I'll just keep on faking it for you, maybe it's fair
Wish I could tell her how thankful I am of her
She made me actually think I was better than I was
Even if it wasn't true I could never pay her back
I don't gotta clue
I would do it
If only I knew
She helped me when my mom had surgery
When it was hurting me
She was in the ER for 3 weeks and no one was alerting me
That I could've lost her so many times with urgency
I wish I didn't have to hear her cry on the phone
To say she wants me to take her from the ER to home
So she could kill herself by her own way and terms
Meanwhile I felt the same about myself when she's hurt
I wish it was easy to hear my mom give up easily
Wish it was easy to hide all this pain in secrecy
I wish it was easy for my friends to hear my private side
Wish it was easy to tell them I wish I had died
I wish it was easy to go back to a little kid
Wish it was easy to have to know my parents won't live
Wish it was easy to get a second chance in this one life
Wish it was easy to know it won't matter if I just died

I wish it was easy to say the truth for one fucking time
Where I didn't have to run and hide
Behind all the music I make saying I'm fine
Man I lie way too many times
I shouldn't even try to say I'm in love with her
Cause she'll not even say bye
Cause it won't be the same
If we repeat what happened before it's all a game
She says she loves and cares about me
I don't think it's the same
I don't gotta test fate
To feel bubbled in cause I'm number two in her brain, yeah
Wish it was easy to figure out how to move on
We get older, she's terrified, and I don't belong
I can't replace her, I've tried, in so many of my songs
I hope she never hears this ride of emotions I've been on
I said last summer I won't mess up again
But look at us now I see no end
We just try to be friends, while my demons come in
I don't think we'll meet again but let's have a discussion
I wish it was easy to keep having hope I'll survive
Wish I didn't have to make up all of these lies
That I'll see her in front of me and live together at last
It's fucking depressing being stuck in the past
Wish it was easy to know the future of all of this
Wish I didn't think I'ma die young and not have a kid
Yeah I'm losing it and outta my mind
But you don't fucking care
I'll just keep on faking it for you, maybe it's fair
Wish I could tell her how thankful I am of her
She made me actually think I was better than I was
Even if it wasn't true I could never pay her back
I don't gotta clue
I would do it
If only I knew
She helped me when my mom had surgery
When it was hurting me
She was in the ER for 3 weeks and no one was alerting me
That I could've lost her so many times with urgency
I wish I didn't have to hear her cry on the phone
To say she wants me to take her from the ER to home
So she could kill herself by her own way and terms
Meanwhile I felt the same about myself when she's hurt
I wish it was easy to hear my mom give up easily
Wish it was easy to hide all this pain in secrecy
I wish it was easy for my friends to hear my private side
Wish it was easy to tell them I wish I had died
I wish it was easy to go back to a little kid
Wish it was easy to have to know my parents won't live
Wish it was easy to get a second chance in this one life
Wish it was easy to know it won't matter if I just died