illexotic - Sojourn Lyrics

Been feeling lost and alone
Deep fear became my home
No one understands what I need
I don't know what to believe

Spiritual journey
Solving the problems that hurt me
Don't know where am I going
The pain's overflowing
Is this even working
Time slows
Stops and goes
Past and future juxtaposed
Scrambling for an answer
While the sun sets without a home

Hungry heart
Void within
Here I came
There it went
Inner peace
Heaven sent
In search of enlightenment

Been running and running
With no direction
Can't find my peace
No self reflection
Just indiscretion
No self defense
It's just deflection

No one knows who I am anymore
Haven't changed same as before
Getting tired of shutting my doors
Is it so bad to aspire for more

Aspirations only get me so far
Why must I change
Why's it so hard
Try to maintain
Everything spinning around
Oh shit the world's upside down

Irresponsible childish
Daydreaming argumentative
Won't be the villain you want me to be
Loving heart comes naturally

Can't you see
I did everything that I can
With the plan that I came with
Guess it's time for a gameswitch
Blueprints blew in the wind
Time to write my own pages

I say love you say naive
I say give and you say bleed
Forget the doors I'm headed for the window
Time for a change I'm done with limbo

Hungry heart
Void within
Here I came
There it went
Inner peace
Heaven sent
In search of enlightenment

Confusion
Confronted
Delusional
Stunted
Adversity
Evaluation
Triumphant
Elevation

Feeling fed
No more dread
Love is here without within
No more searching I found it
With my fears I've broken bread