idle threat - safety in the shade Lyrics

Do you think I'll see
Some provision or will I just be
Left to wander through the suffocating heat

And as the distance grows
Fears of the end start to swell by twofold
With each pace I take, I can't say I know
If my legs will let me go

I know the path back home,
But will they let me go?

Did God really say,
You are forbidden from everything He made,
And you'll be grasping at the shade for all your days
Just to feel like you are safe?

When that choice was made
I heard You walking and my heart became afraid
What once was beauty manifested into shame,
And I've never been the same

Will I spend my days
Reaching for the shade?
Your fingerprints remain
I've never been the same

I'm apprehended by my apprehension (is there a way out?)
In an instant arises more tension (is there a way out?)
I'm starting to feel overcome, my legs are weak, my hands are numb
I know that joy comes in the morning but
Is there a way out now?

If I close my eyes and hide
These recycled the lies I buy will not survive until I let them all back in
If I close my eyes and hide
I know that joy comes in the morning but
Is there a way out now?
Is there a way out right now?

There has to be a sanctuary of relief
Look for safety in the shade, you'll find nothing