Human Kitten - Ressentiment (Hamartia) Lyrics

Wake up, what am I to do today
How do I fill the hours of a life
Where I don't feel capable of doing anything at all
Wake up, how am I to feel today
How do I escape the agonizing narratives
That kept me up til sunrise
I stare into the eyes of a distant hope and it says Hold On
I cant control the world, I can only control if I hold on
Everything, it hurts right now, but I need to, I need to
I need to hold on
Wake up, I am useless
That is all you want from me, to dissolve completely into
Nothingness, nothing at all
And I know that this is no better
Breaking rules, attempts to feel less scattered
Opposite directions take me
I never learned to learn without failing