Hrtbrk, Yungmaple - Afterlife Lyrics

Love as a concepts a classic sight
I'll probably be single way past the after life
And as a poltergeist or ghost I'd hope to have a bride
But I don't think that that'll happen I'll be past my prime
And if someone attempts to tell me that they love me and
They want me for their husband I'll just laugh and wonder wheres the cam
Cause what's appealing bout me? I'm nothing special since
I'm just a dead beat Valentine suffering in nothingness
I'll wander through the realm and see the couple's walking by
Just like in reality and issue out some subtle sighs
Cause it's so hard for me, I wonder what's the set back
Is it the way I make dad jokes or is it cause I'm just trash
Is it the way I point out flaws or is it my past that's gotten through
And ruined my whole outlook on love, life, and truth
I don't understand it, but I know I used to love
I used to trust and used to care bout messages but now I'm thinking like

Why do I
Why do I even try
Why do I
Why do I even try anymore
I think I love you
Maybe I don't
I think I love you
But then again
Maybe I don't

I used to love you, you made that all fade away
I swear it takes a lot for me to change my hearts to razor blades
And play the fade and face the fate of shades of grey and chain my stained
Heart that's bled through pain and rain and hope that I don't stay this way and
You made me rethink this love stuff
I don't think you deserve it now that I think back that's tough luck
But others do I'm comfortable with letting you, go ahead
And watching you just walk away cause I don't think you know I care
But I do, I care a lot about you
And wish that we could be closer, but every day I drown through
These waters causing drifting, a part of our bond and silence
A difference in our missions, a constant time of reminder
That that one decision impacted a massive fight and
Left us both broken and going in separate private lanes
I once thought I loved you, but I don't see that in my eyes
I don't even know why I try, I'll see you in the after life