Hate Being Sober, Kenny Cadence, Brinkworth - Confession Tape Lyrics

Listen
Look
Look 
Said lately I been tryna get my mind right
Reminiscing 
Wrestling with hindsight
I Been so pessimistic never did think I'd climb
Up from out the hole that I done dug myself in past times
Look
I think I need a better past time 
Cuz smoking everyday gon' make me fucking crazy
It only takes an hour for me to do this 
But I barely put out music
Fair to say that I been fucking lazy 
And I done thought of many reasons
So creative with excuses even I would start believing 
All the lies I've told myself to stop me feeling how I'm feeling
I been weak and steady bleeding whilst the world thought I was healing 
I
I Wish I could just make me one song 
Where I do not have to open up and speak about my demons 
I
I wish I could just go through one night
Without feeling how I'm feeling and just
Sleep when I close my eyes
I
I guess I'm searching for change 
I swear it's like when things are good then I go searching for pain
I often think about a way to leave this earth but I stay
And there I go again proving to you all I'm insane
Now look
Been talking to myself more than I ever have 
At war with what I never had and fought to get forever back
Recreated every error made that ever set me back
That means I'm running round in circles if you getting that 
See the time you waste in life you cannot get it back
And your decisions will dictate the type of threat you have 
Far from a leader I can bet you that
Said I'm not hear to be no preacher I'm just saying where my head is at
I'm just saying where my head is at
I'm just saying where my head is at
I'm just saying where my head is at 
I'm just saying where my head is at 
I used to stand with conviction
Until I stood on that stand and got convicted
I was convinced that
Everybody was against me
But in reality
I was my own worst enemy
And these people were just trying to help me
Get out of that dark place that I was in
The devils pulling me one way
My inner child can see my wrong doings
Kneeling at his bed
Begging God please let him in
Its no wonder I penned an EP
For the Karmic Debt that I'm in
Never mind my younger years though
They were minor
Came up with a mindset that
I was ahead of my time and
In a weird sort of way I was right
Should have put the work in
But I acted like a sick note
Thought that I set the tone on the mic
But Nope
I would practise in mirrors and wouldn't choke but
Another empty venues and friends who were no shows
Ironic because without a crowd there is no show
I kept telling myself it would work out like
Yeah I hope so
Back to square one after going in circles
I wrote like I was trying to fit circles in square holes
I'd make a fist and tap a rhythm
Work my knuckles to the bare bones
See others being put on like
No
Don't you dare moan
Re-plan re-schedule react
Its still in you re plant
Those seeds to get back
Give it all your time and effort
Surely somebody will pick it up
Just a bunch of fire emoji comments
Back to relying on promise
Id battle these independent battle rappers at skate parks
But was too scared to enter battle leagues
Wont stop until I'm the last to breathe
But don't go testing that
Im just saying where my head is at
I'm just saying where my head is at
I'm just saying where my head is at
I'm just saying where my head is at 
I'm just saying where my head is at 

Listen
Look
Look 
Said lately I been tryna get my mind right
Reminiscing 
Wrestling with hindsight
I Been so pessimistic never did think I'd climb
Up from out the hole that I done dug myself in past times
Look
I think I need a better past time 
Cuz smoking everyday gon' make me fucking crazy
It only takes an hour for me to do this 
But I barely put out music
Fair to say that I been fucking lazy 
And I done thought of many reasons
So creative with excuses even I would start believing 
All the lies I've told myself to stop me feeling how I'm feeling
I been weak and steady bleeding whilst the world thought I was healing 
I
I Wish I could just make me one song 
Where I do not have to open up and speak about my demons 
I
I wish I could just go through one night
Without feeling how I'm feeling and just
Sleep when I close my eyes
I
I guess I'm searching for change 
I swear it's like when things are good then I go searching for pain
I often think about a way to leave this earth but I stay
And there I go again proving to you all I'm insane
Now look
Been talking to myself more than I ever have 
At war with what I never had and fought to get forever back
Recreated every error made that ever set me back
That means I'm running round in circles if you getting that 
See the time you waste in life you cannot get it back
And your decisions will dictate the type of threat you have 
Far from a leader I can bet you that
Said I'm not hear to be no preacher I'm just saying where my head is at
I'm just saying where my head is at
I'm just saying where my head is at
I'm just saying where my head is at 
I'm just saying where my head is at 
I used to stand with conviction
Until I stood on that stand and got convicted
I was convinced that
Everybody was against me
But in reality
I was my own worst enemy
And these people were just trying to help me
Get out of that dark place that I was in
The devils pulling me one way
My inner child can see my wrong doings
Kneeling at his bed
Begging God please let him in
Its no wonder I penned an EP
For the Karmic Debt that I'm in
Never mind my younger years though
They were minor
Came up with a mindset that
I was ahead of my time and
In a weird sort of way I was right
Should have put the work in
But I acted like a sick note
Thought that I set the tone on the mic
But Nope
I would practise in mirrors and wouldn't choke but
Another empty venues and friends who were no shows
Ironic because without a crowd there is no show
I kept telling myself it would work out like
Yeah I hope so
Back to square one after going in circles
I wrote like I was trying to fit circles in square holes
I'd make a fist and tap a rhythm
Work my knuckles to the bare bones
See others being put on like
No
Don't you dare moan
Re-plan re-schedule react
Its still in you re plant
Those seeds to get back
Give it all your time and effort
Surely somebody will pick it up
Just a bunch of fire emoji comments
Back to relying on promise
Id battle these independent battle rappers at skate parks
But was too scared to enter battle leagues
Wont stop until I'm the last to breathe
But don't go testing that
Im just saying where my head is at
I'm just saying where my head is at
I'm just saying where my head is at
I'm just saying where my head is at 
I'm just saying where my head is at