Envyus, Fat Body Scotty - Shift Lyrics

Am I a slave to my own imagination babe?
I sit on my throne thinking of all the people that I left behind
Only those of the blood of the youth will understand
That I don't have much time
I'm out of my mind
I just wanna be different, not the same
Distraction maybe something that can get me higher, excited, yeah

Every time I look around I see the change, yeah
Distracting myself with all the gold and the chains, yeah
Hope and the fame, yeah
She a supernova she a special flame, yeah
Novacane inside my veins to numb the pain, yeah
Cocaine in the brain driving people that I love insane
Drugs enslave the weak and vein they sell their bodies on the street corner everyday
She say that she love me but she just can't look in my face, yeah
It's better this way
It's better this way
If God is a holy light then tell my why my skies are gray
Living life in neutral tones
Through a cracked screen on my phone
Ache inside my bones
Happy and wealthy I cannot have em both
Got a choice to make and love that I gotta let go
I apologize if I never let you know
I've been growing extra cold
Just to reach the next coast
Just to reach the next goal
Just to reach the next, yeah

It's too much
Personally, I don't need to believe
In someone when I have you
By my side for eternity
Is love there?
Is love the life I choose, do we get a second try
Standing here at the grim reaper's door
I don't know what to do
I'm not in my head anymore
Save me
Save me or kill me or lay me down

I step and shift
In spacial rifts
This special gift
That crushes shit
That leaves impressions
On depression I don't know how to proceed
Supersede myself on death with images that show regret
So you can see how I have felt
How have I dealt with pain I sell
Just to make a buck or two
Providing for my family make them comfortable
I'm thankful they were hateful they inspire me
What irony how I complain about the feelings that I got inside of me
When they make art but break my heart
That's the price I pay to make my way when it's cold and dark
Silence when I see the spark
Silence when I seem to start
To speak she creeps inside my dreams inside my head inside my sleep
I'll wake up dead and feel deceased
Decrease the stress I seem to keep
I fear the shadow in the street
Cause I know he's been watching me
I know he's been stalking me
I would draw my blade but I know who is haunting me
And stopping me from flocking sheep
It dawned on me I'm in the mirror and his silhouette is on top of me