English, John Rushton - Bury Lyrics

Yeah, they said it's all in your head
Get up off your feet and fucking do it
But I'm a mess depressed can't get out of bed
They say I've been making excuses
Drinking again
Overthinking again
Sinking again
See, I could use a life raft
I write tracks just to fight back
Personal demons won't ever leave him
These personal demons won't ever won't ever leave him

You could say that I'm caught up but
You'll never know the pain that I've had to bury
You could say that it's all love but
You'll never know the weight that I've had to carry
You could say that I'm caught up but
You'll never know the pain that I've had to bury
You could say that it's all love but
You'll never know the weight that I've had to carry
People leave
People change
Nothing in life will stay the same
People leave
People change
Nothing in life nothing in life stays the same

This is for everybody with all of these problems
I never knew how to handle mine
And every step I ever make is over analyzed
They say that life's a beach right
Well, this sand is slowly slippin' through the hands of time
I've been learning all my lessons
Burning all my bridges
Worsening depression. What's worse is that I can't fix it
I've been searching where my head is. Internalized my afflictions
So don't turn to me for direction I'm working on being distant
Don't call
I don't wanna talk right now
Hold off
Can't give you my all right now
I've been losing my light as I've been stuck in this solstice
And there's no solutions in sight I just wanted some solace
I can't confuse this with spite
I just struggle to cope with the illusions of life
Or a summoned psychosis
See, I'm close to the edge but it's out of control
Shit, I'm broken. I'm bent
I'm jumbled
Unfocused

You could say that I'm caught up but
You'll never know the pain that I've had to bury
You could say that it's all love but
You'll never know the weight that I've had to carry
You could say that I'm caught up but
You'll never know the pain that I've had to bury
You could say that it's all love but
You'll never know the weight that I've had to carry
People leave
People change
Nothing in life will stay the same
People leave
People change
Nothing in life nothing in life stays the same

I'm waging wars within myself to set aside my pride to love
Responsibility is what I'm always hiding from
Sadness that's inside my cup
Cheers to tears I line 'em up
I'm living life on the edge 'til I decide to jump
The guilt kills me
I look at life with apathy
I gaze into the mirror, there's a monster staring back at me
Oh, baby, I've been drinking to forget you
Another bottle polished, but I can't seem to let loose
And just like how the seasons change
I see a change in me
I'm still losing leaves. One day I'll see the man I aim to be
I'm always seeking refuge finding hope in the bourbon
While I'm crying out to God that I will grow as person
I still live with regret
My heart ripped through my chest
Yeah, your lips are like razors when you're kissing my neck
So kill me
Yeah, I pray the Lord my soul to take
There's comfort in the grave before I find it in your cold embrace

You could say that I'm caught up but
You'll never know the pain that I've had to bury
You could say that it's all love but
You'll never know the weight that I've had to carry
People leave
People change
Nothing in life will stay the same
People leave
People change
Nothing in life nothing in life stays the same