Emilio Rojas - This Can't Be Life Lyrics

Single mom I was raised by her, in a place where the hate triumphed
Half white, half Latin, so my inner conflict was a race riot
She said I'd never be shit, said I'd die young, said I'd end up in a precinct
Where the cops wanna see us dead, now they only looking for a reason
Uh, now I'm in the four seasons feet kicked up on the balcony looking at the city lights
Thinking of the broads that I did so wrong, now, I was so focused on getting right
Put them in a cab and I put them in a song, uh huh
I don't know if she got style cause I only seen her in a thong
It's a life I lead, no, my life don't lead me
Yeah, and I don't need love, and my love don't need me
Yeah, that's co-dependent, coulda end up as a co-defendant
Coulda spent months in a coldest cell because a code of silence is a code of ethics
Where I'm from, everybody sold drugs, uh huh
We don't wanna die young, and we wanna grow up, uh huh
And my homie just OD'ed, had to see it online, no one told me
Right, I ain't know he was a dope fiend with kilos in his arm tryna play it off lowkey
[?] poking his vein, when I'm back home now it won't be the same
Tryna find hope in the rocks like looking for a teardrop soaked in the rain
Nothing changes, hate from love or is it love from strangers?
Said I'm living on the edge, I just hope it's sharp enough for me to cut the chains

[Hook: Emilio Rojas with background singing""It/This can't be life""]
Yeah, and this can't be life, and this can't be
And this can't be life, and it can't be
We deserve more than that, uh huh
Gotta make this right, yeah
Yeah, and this can't be life
Yeah, and this can't be life, and it can't be
Yeah, and this can't be life, and it can't be
We deserve more than that, uh huh
Gotta make this right, yeah
Yeah, and this can't be life

[Verse 2]
And lately I've been praying, amen
Tryna box with God but my heart is too heavy to make the weigh in now
I'm staying patient, in the study, recording
I'm on credit for them hours, knowing that I can't afford it
And my cousin started snorting shit, my little sister pregnant, damn
I told her to abort it, since I said it, I regret it now
When my niece and nephew enter this world, and it's gonna be guilt
When I look into they beautiful eyes and I think of the time I said she should kill them
I'm not perfect, I don't pretend to be, I'm my worst fucking enemy
Cause I gave my ex's all they best sex and they worst memories
But still they just can't seem to leave me alone
That's a cycle of dysfunction man, that shit just go and go
We just kids from broken homes, can't fix shit, struggling with love and addiction
And all the months that we never paid rent on time, landlord threatening eviction
When them doors close though, you just gotta break through, right
You don't wanna look back with regrets, stressed out 'bout what you ain't do

[Hook: Emilio Rojas with background singing""It/This can't be life""]
Yeah, and this can't be life, and this can't be
And this can't be life, and it can't be
We deserve more than that, uh huh
Gotta make this right, yeah
Yeah, and this can't be life
Yeah, and this can't be life, and it can't be
Yeah, and this can't be life, and it can't be
We deserve more than that, uh huh
Gotta make this right, yeah
Yeah, and this can't be life