Diran - Soliloquy Lyrics

Another year on the board, what can I say?
Man, you know me, I'm just learning more by the day
A lotta things on my mental I gotta weigh
A lotta weight on my mental, I gotta pray
I see the cultural pivot from where I live
And I'm in shock, but I take it for what it is
I feel the tension of hoping to be a father
Knowing good and well the world that we live ain't built for kids
Still I give it all to God, whatever He wills
I ain't got a thing to lose, only something to gain
All I know is life is short and comparison kills
So more than ever, I'm committed to running my lane
Lagos City born and raised, I say it with pride
Yeah the roots is hella deep, don't you play with me boy
Still they question me like I got a reason to lie
But I can't even see the profit in playing it coy
And if you ask me how I'm feeling, it's favoured and blessed
I've been following my dreams, now they coming to life
Now my dawgs from round the way tryna say that I'm next
But I'm just putting in my hours and dunning the hype
I'm just doing what I can to inspire the youngins
But I ain't superhuman, dawg if you cut me I bleed
It ain't no love up in this business, especially for a witness
Hoping God can help a brother see the forest for the trees, 'cause it's real
When it's all said and done, man I just wanna be remembered for good
When it's all said and done, man I just wanna be remembered for good
Lord knows if I could be perfect all the time then I would
But when it's all said and done, man I just wanna be remembered for good
You know it's real when your conversations evolve from sneaker game to quarterly figures
I gotta get it while I can, I won't be here forever
It's still a lot of hairy plans that I'm weaving together
I see the devil tryna creep but I'm peaceful as ever, hardly afraid
I ask the Lord above to order my steps
And I ain't taking no Ls, it's either win or learn to broaden my ways,
But either way, I know it's all for the best
Sometimes I pause in my tracks and think of what could or should have been
Family relationships I wish I could make good again
Missed opportunities that deflated my confidence
Things that you never could fully see if you looking in
Things that you never could really know till you been involved
Demons that try to come back around, every now and then
I don't say much about it, but trust me, I feel it all
Still I'm just leaning into convictions that lie within
Still I'm just digging into the Scriptures in search of gold
No medication, just meditation, that's how I roll
And I ain't no Stevie when it come to the vocal chords
But truly, bar for bar, I give 'em heart and a lot of soul
Ain't no way that I could ever know what the future holds
Guess I gotta figure out a lot of it down the road
But right here and now, man I'm just focused on the vision and the mission
Doing what I can to be faithful in my position, it's real
When it's all said and done, man I just wanna be remembered for good
When it's all said and done, man I just wanna be remembered for good
Lord knows if I could be perfect all the time then I would
But when it's all said and done, man I just wanna be remembered for good

Another year on the board, what can I say?
Man, you know me, I'm just learning more by the day
A lotta things on my mental I gotta weigh
A lotta weight on my mental, I gotta pray
I see the cultural pivot from where I live
And I'm in shock, but I take it for what it is
I feel the tension of hoping to be a father
Knowing good and well the world that we live ain't built for kids
Still I give it all to God, whatever He wills
I ain't got a thing to lose, only something to gain
All I know is life is short and comparison kills
So more than ever, I'm committed to running my lane
Lagos City born and raised, I say it with pride
Yeah the roots is hella deep, don't you play with me boy
Still they question me like I got a reason to lie
But I can't even see the profit in playing it coy
And if you ask me how I'm feeling, it's favoured and blessed
I've been following my dreams, now they coming to life
Now my dawgs from round the way tryna say that I'm next
But I'm just putting in my hours and dunning the hype
I'm just doing what I can to inspire the youngins
But I ain't superhuman, dawg if you cut me I bleed
It ain't no love up in this business, especially for a witness
Hoping God can help a brother see the forest for the trees, 'cause it's real
When it's all said and done, man I just wanna be remembered for good
When it's all said and done, man I just wanna be remembered for good
Lord knows if I could be perfect all the time then I would
But when it's all said and done, man I just wanna be remembered for good
You know it's real when your conversations evolve from sneaker game to quarterly figures
I gotta get it while I can, I won't be here forever
It's still a lot of hairy plans that I'm weaving together
I see the devil tryna creep but I'm peaceful as ever, hardly afraid
I ask the Lord above to order my steps
And I ain't taking no Ls, it's either win or learn to broaden my ways,
But either way, I know it's all for the best
Sometimes I pause in my tracks and think of what could or should have been
Family relationships I wish I could make good again
Missed opportunities that deflated my confidence
Things that you never could fully see if you looking in
Things that you never could really know till you been involved
Demons that try to come back around, every now and then
I don't say much about it, but trust me, I feel it all
Still I'm just leaning into convictions that lie within
Still I'm just digging into the Scriptures in search of gold
No medication, just meditation, that's how I roll
And I ain't no Stevie when it come to the vocal chords
But truly, bar for bar, I give 'em heart and a lot of soul
Ain't no way that I could ever know what the future holds
Guess I gotta figure out a lot of it down the road
But right here and now, man I'm just focused on the vision and the mission
Doing what I can to be faithful in my position, it's real
When it's all said and done, man I just wanna be remembered for good
When it's all said and done, man I just wanna be remembered for good
Lord knows if I could be perfect all the time then I would
But when it's all said and done, man I just wanna be remembered for good