Danté James - Realization Lyrics

Yeah I finally realized
I just had to see through Gods eyes
Now I know
In him, I find my peace of mind
Yeah he never left me after all this time

Okay been thinking lately as I'm sipping drinking this water
Got my own team I ain't worried about being a starter
Mama wanna retire early so I'm really tryna go harder
But the feelings that I have been facing
It feel like they holding me back when I'm tryna go farther
I'm tryna love me despite all the times I've been broken
Be outspoken when I'm feeling emotion
Though it may feel like I drown in the ocean I know where my hope is
And I will never depart like a lotus I'm focused on building me up when I'm sulking
My demons they tempting me to be the old me and spaz on Alexa
Cause I've been so broken
Why would you leave in my time of need actually
Why would you leave and then still be all close to me
Act like were dating but don't got a title so every late convo we turned into rivals
And I let you go but I can't lie there's a part of me that's wants to see you cry
Cause I took the blame when you told lies and when I was depressed I apologized
Make it make sense
That is some
Nah I know I'm better than this
Sending out love only
Cause it's what I needed
But to you, I guess my love was just a game
And that's crazy
Real crazy
Now my love for you is kinda fading
I could never do the hate thing
But I hate that I love you man that's aching it's so draining

Yeah I finally realized
I just had to see through Gods eyes
Now I know
In him, I find my peace of mind
Yeah he never left me after all this time

Okay been thinking lately as I'm sipping drinking this water
Got my own team I ain't worried about being a starter
Dad moving back home soon so I'm really tryna go harder
But the distance that I have been facing
It feels like it's holding me back when I'm tryna go farther
Don't always do what I ought to
I been working on my problems
Though it's hard Imma solve em
I put that on everything I'm on the winning team
Took an L but I bounced back like Big Sean
This new stuff is my old stuff so you don't know what I've been on
I know I made mistakes
I was looking for brighter days
But the way I found happiness it was me who got pushed away
And my faith has been broken
But I see God in my ocean I'm floating
Hoping and praying that you help me as I'm coping

Yeah I finally realized
I just had to see through Gods eyes
Now I know
In him, I find my peace of mind
Yeah he never left me after all this time

Yeah yeah
One more

Aye 25 gotta thank God for another year cause I didn't deserve it
He filled my soul up with purpose
So now I'm determined to work it
Still struggle with churches
And I'm just being honest
Working through my problems
Been an optimist with pessimist thoughts
I'm tryna think back on the scriptures they taught
I think I unlearned them when mom and dad fought
Okay and I'm feeling good as of recently
Tryna be more than an artist but seeking the Heavenly Father
To alter their hearts with my words
But I'm praying to God that they reaching me
What I mean
I'm reaching to you as I'm reaching to God
But I'm realizing not close as I thought
Dang I'm realizing not close as I thought