Immersing oneself in the world of art and introspection, this song is a raw exploration of existential angst and self-doubt. The lyrics reveal an individual grappling with their place in the world, seeking solace in music like The Cure, or films like Videodrome - only to find themselves further lost or emotionally overwhelmed. The refrain 'til I die' and 'it's DIY' suggests a struggle with the idea of mortality and the need for self-reliance. Nightmares keep the protagonist awake, indicating inner turmoil that pervades even their dreams. Despite expressing a desire to leave, they decide to stay, hinting at a sense of resignation or acceptance of their current state. Overall, it portrays an emotional journey towards understanding oneself amidst life's chaos and solitude.
