cøzybøy - been on my mind Lyrics

these girls hop around like it’s double dutch
wine in my cup
sizing em up
where is the love

reaching for air
suffocated by trust issues this shit isn't fair
i played by the rules and got clipped on the air
i showed you i cared
i was really there
helped you more than i thought i would dare

i was dealing with my shit but then i canceled it
answered every phone call
you dont know the half of it
never told you cuz i know your thoughts snowball
i tried to be a good guy but all i got was cut throat

i stopped everything
i stopped making beats and chasing dreams
so i could help you chase your dreams

funny how that shit turned quick to a nightmare
ex girl on my mind
thousand yard stare
out of the war but i smell blood in the air
PTSD close my eyes i see you there

impaired
stumblin on my feet
i dont normally get like this especially during the week
but i been holding onto words i know it’s hard to believe
you lost yourself awhile back and found yourself in me
then i was your source of happiness
and that’s how we lose cuz then
when i was hurt you were hurt but you were hurting me
complicated shit that we waded through
young kids in love feels like murder in the 3rd degree

yea, swear i wish i could give you more
insecure beautiful girls hard to adore
i tried to give you everything from every single pore
but it was hard for me to open up
like a locked door i was shut from the moment we kissed
i was already shut before the day that we made love at my crib
i’m sorry, i just been through it all before
been watching my parents go through it since i was four

yea
and now im lonely in the aftermath
sleep with random girls just so i can (a)void the heart attacks
still can’t believe you gave me backlash after everything you said
what a mismatch

huh
but whatever i know it’s hard for you
i guess when people lie to themselves they lie to you too
shit’s gonna be hard to undo
but fuck it
cozy