Cid Lost - Hillside Lyrics

And I been feeling this type of way for so long
My heart been hella empty, and I think my soul gone
And I can't care about nobody feelings, what about my own, oh
And I know
That I been hurt inside, that's just real life
I've been starting to realize that you can say you love me
But that isn't what it feel like
Don't talk to me about loyalty, 'cause that ain't what it feel like
But if you ask me if I'm okay, then I feel fine
And you can see that I'm alive but I'm still dying
OK, "Stop doing them drugs", but I'm still high
And I can't even tell the truth, OK, I'm still lying
I think that I need a vacation on the hillside
I think that I been movin slower every day
I think I'm stuck inside my habits, that's okay, oh
I pray to God He hold my hand up through the rain, oh
I pray that nobody gon' test me, not today
Cause I'm at the edge, and I might just put you in the concrete
It make me feel some type of way, who gon' stop me
Don't go trying to save me
Oh, I can promise I'm beyond reach
I just want a mansion in the hills with the palm trees, woah
And I want bands
And I want a brand new Mercedes, I don't want friends
I wanna pay my momma's debt so she can live
And I want some jewelry for every single one of my limbs
I been hurt inside, that's just real life
I've been starting to realize that you can say you love me
But that isn't what it feel like
Don't talk to me about loyalty, 'cause that ain't what it feel like
But if you ask me if I'm okay, then I feel fine
And you can see that I'm alive but I'm still dying
OK, "Stop doing them drugs", but I'm still high
And I can't even tell the truth, OK, I'm still lying
I think that I need a vacation on the hillside
I think that I need a vacation
Or a maybach and some bands, baby
Why you got your arm extended, when i ain't shakin no hands
Lately, I dont trust a soul, like what you think it is in my pants, baby?
Right now I'm alone in my bed
Don't try to come, it's no chance baby
And I thought that had been known
You tried switch on me like Nintendo
Your man tripping, he ain't get the memo
Now he got a toe tag, but I'm 10 toes
Like, why you acting so ghetto?
That ain't a boyfriend, that's a demo
Ask me how I been doing, I'm good baby, I guess so
I been hurt inside, that's just real life
I've been starting to realize that you can say you love me
But that isn't what it feel like
Don't talk to me about loyalty, 'cause that ain't what it feel like
But if you ask me if I'm okay, then I feel fine
And you can see that I'm alive but I'm still dying
OK, "Stop doing them drugs", but I'm still high
And I can't even tell the truth, OK, I'm still lying
I think that I need a vacation on the hillside
And you can see that I'm alive, but I'm still dying
And I can't even tell the truth, OK, I'm still lying
I think that I need a vacation on the hillside

And I been feeling this type of way for so long
My heart been hella empty, and I think my soul gone
And I can't care about nobody feelings, what about my own, oh
And I know
That I been hurt inside, that's just real life
I've been starting to realize that you can say you love me
But that isn't what it feel like
Don't talk to me about loyalty, 'cause that ain't what it feel like
But if you ask me if I'm okay, then I feel fine
And you can see that I'm alive but I'm still dying
OK, "Stop doing them drugs", but I'm still high
And I can't even tell the truth, OK, I'm still lying
I think that I need a vacation on the hillside
I think that I been movin slower every day
I think I'm stuck inside my habits, that's okay, oh
I pray to God He hold my hand up through the rain, oh
I pray that nobody gon' test me, not today
Cause I'm at the edge, and I might just put you in the concrete
It make me feel some type of way, who gon' stop me
Don't go trying to save me
Oh, I can promise I'm beyond reach
I just want a mansion in the hills with the palm trees, woah
And I want bands
And I want a brand new Mercedes, I don't want friends
I wanna pay my momma's debt so she can live
And I want some jewelry for every single one of my limbs
I been hurt inside, that's just real life
I've been starting to realize that you can say you love me
But that isn't what it feel like
Don't talk to me about loyalty, 'cause that ain't what it feel like
But if you ask me if I'm okay, then I feel fine
And you can see that I'm alive but I'm still dying
OK, "Stop doing them drugs", but I'm still high
And I can't even tell the truth, OK, I'm still lying
I think that I need a vacation on the hillside
I think that I need a vacation
Or a maybach and some bands, baby
Why you got your arm extended, when i ain't shakin no hands
Lately, I dont trust a soul, like what you think it is in my pants, baby?
Right now I'm alone in my bed
Don't try to come, it's no chance baby
And I thought that had been known
You tried switch on me like Nintendo
Your man tripping, he ain't get the memo
Now he got a toe tag, but I'm 10 toes
Like, why you acting so ghetto?
That ain't a boyfriend, that's a demo
Ask me how I been doing, I'm good baby, I guess so
I been hurt inside, that's just real life
I've been starting to realize that you can say you love me
But that isn't what it feel like
Don't talk to me about loyalty, 'cause that ain't what it feel like
But if you ask me if I'm okay, then I feel fine
And you can see that I'm alive but I'm still dying
OK, "Stop doing them drugs", but I'm still high
And I can't even tell the truth, OK, I'm still lying
I think that I need a vacation on the hillside
And you can see that I'm alive, but I'm still dying
And I can't even tell the truth, OK, I'm still lying
I think that I need a vacation on the hillside