BVNE - Gold Bones Lyrics

I've been falling so far so long
I don't know where I've been headed I don't what's been wrong
Like I'm losing my touch
I try to stay strong but it never seems enough
And I really wish you saw the other side
Really wish I didn't make you cry, hold you high, and I try
Just to realize I ain't living right
Do you sympathize? Can you visualize what I tend to fight? Given time
I could see the reason why we all float on
Not so modest, I'm a mouse with the songs
Let's be honest, no account leads me on
I spend my own time and I try to move on
But I lie to you all when I lie to myself
Say goodbye to my faults but they lie on the shelf
Getting tired of my self
Getting tired of my self

And I think I've been waiting for something that just won't happen
I'll sink my bones in the ocean
And polish the remnants so I can resent this and salute my skin to the captain
I'll sink so far and I know this

Gold bones, yeah I'm brittle but I'm worth a lot
I'm at work to hurt myself but it's been worth a shot
Yeah
Numb the pain so it don't hurt a lot
Yeah
I'm insane so I still work the clock

I've been holding onto everything and choking on my breath
To see the hope that they have lent to me I'm focused on the better things
Even though I fold, upset it seems
I hold these gold bones to standards they can't seem to reach
I breach the other side like Snake and CQC the fakes
You're free to see the rest of what it takes though it would seem I'm late
Or way too early cause it hurts me just to wait around
I let my nerves leave, they curse me and I seek the sound
That they all wanna be a part of
But I'll do me and hold my heart up
In this gilded cage
And I can feel all of the stardust weighing down all of my options
I feel the guilt and rage

And I think I've been waiting for something that just won't happen
I'll sink my bones in the ocean
And polish the remnants so I can resent this and salute my skin to the captain
I'll sink so far and I know this

Gold bones, yeah I'm brittle but I'm worth a lot
I'm at work to hurt myself but it's been worth a shot
Yeah
Numb the pain so it don't hurt a lot
Yeah
I'm insane so I still work the clock