Begonia - Cold Fire Lyrics

My breathing can't be regulated
Everything I used to love
Now I hate it
I can't say it's all because of you
But I'd like to

Seeing visions
Seeing stars
But when I search for higher meaning
It always feels so far
I can't even say that I'm surprised
Should have guessed it the first day
I looked into your eyes

Invited yourself
Over to my house
I wanted to love you
But I should have kicked you right out

I will never go back
To who I was before
Living in darkness
Never feeling sure
And only from a distance
Could I set myself free
Now you're nothing but a ghost just
Living in my memory

Maybe I deserve it
All this wasted time
Thinking that I earned it
But that's not right
Some days I dig a little deeper
And some I hold it all inside
I am the only keeper of the demons in my mind

I know I'm not the only one
Singing tired songs of love
Getting all hung up
When I should be moving on
Obsessing over each mistake
Indulging in a heartbreak
Where every move I make
Is the wrong one

When every day
Filled me with doubt
They said time is a healer
I didn't think i'd see my way out

I will never go back
To who I was before
Living in darkness
Never feeling sure
And only from a distance
Could I set myself free
Now you're nothing but a ghost just
Living in my memory