Ashxs, Nikolai Rya - Mistakes Lyrics

Would you rather me laugh about it or cry? yanno?

No pain, no gain, no fortune, fame, I'll slit my wrist n fade away
Take me to a higher place where there's no evil, time, or space
Rape me with debates on how i feel and how i state my case
Call me crazy, bring up race, throw mistakes all in my face
I got a lot
Hang the ego, save the space
Forgot to mention this is laced, what's ya name and what's the date?
Where's ya mama, where she stay? family full of renegades
And i don't trust a bitch unless she beggin for my dinner plate, wait

Yo is that mysoginistic? Like i respect bitches, yanno, i just don't trust y'all
I-I-I respect women type shit, yanno? I mean i been workin on that shit, alright?
It's been years of conditioning. I love y'all. Blame society

Got me bent if you think imma pay some bills and die
I'm changing lives, my brain is fried, but i been layin back on highs
This ayahuasca takes me places i don't wonder
I don't wanna talk about the shit i ponder, let's just smoke some marijuana (liar)

Fuck you. shit. I'm better than i was? I used to wake up, eat three xans with some mickeys
Start rollin blunts, then hit some lines once i felt the shit
Call some bitches over, fuck, pass out, wake up, and repeat

Tell my mama that i'm sorry i'm a drug addict
I been turnin all my problems into drug habits
Disappear into the night with a few baddies
I ain't answering my phones, money doesn't make me happy anymore

I'll slit my wrist n fade away
Take me to a higher place where there's no evil, time, or space
Rape me with debates on how i feel and how i state my case
Call me crazy, bring up race, throw mistakes all in my face, i got a lot
Hang the ego, save the space, ha, wait
Forgot to mention this is laced, what's ya name and what's the date?
Where's ya mama, where she stay? family full of renegades
And i don't trust a bitch unless she beggin for my dinner plate

And i don't trust myself, but fuck it imma try it anyways
Catch a case and catch a fade, beat my ass with razor blades
The mind's amazing but a maze, i'm lost in ways i can't explain
Substances help ease the pain, im goin crazy stayin sane, woah...

All this pain
Another day
Razor blade w grip to play
Slide it black and forth both ways

Feel insane she looks in my black eyes afraid
I dont wanna fucking hangout- go away
Inn my mind its all another game
Grip the grain is what I always say
If you pull the 40 better not fucking play

Waiting im drowning in my problems
Choke her come to me pull the collar
I fw your issues, you call me your father
This world disfunctuonal I am not bothered

Fuck screaming my name
Use that shit in vein
If I black out hope you see my face
Pull the pin back let 100 rain

Fuck life, we all dead tho
Drama it makes a show
Theyre life it takea a toll...
I left Im on the road

I dont got a hoe
X out all the days in rows...