American Bandit - Good Times Lyrics

I don't think I know who I am anymore, not in control
Months begin to feel years
Years like a lifetime
It's only been days
Dooming myself, this must be hell
Consciously ignoring the signs that have been there the whole time
Why am I like this?
Never wanting to be happy
Maybe it's something I did
Something I can't forgive
I disgust myself
Convince myself
I deserve this

You started looking for a good time
You had a hopeful look in your eyes
Nine years later with nothing to show
It would be so goddamn easy to just let go

Take drugs
Fucking hate love
Fuck up everything you believe in
Get drunk
Bury your head, wait till your dead
Nothing in life will ever be worth it

Loneliness is all I ever wanted
Needed
Hoped for
Believed in
Goddamn I'm defeated

Give up, get down, look around
Nobody even cares about you now
Give up, get down, look around
Nobody even cares about you now
Give up, get down, look around
You're all alone now

You started looking for a good time
You had a hopeful look in your eyes
Nine years later with nothing to show
It would be so goddamn easy to just let go

I feel it fueling up inside
A fever I can't deny
Can't contain it
I'll never break it

I feel it fueling up inside
A fever I can't deny
Can't contain it
I'll never break it