Alex Russell - Hate Me Now Lyrics

I just wonder if you hate me now
I been so inside my head it's been screaming loud
I just wanna be dead no more freaking out
I can't stay inside my bed without being down
She said, maybe I need therapy
But, lyrics was the one there for me
And the sad thing now it's scarcity
Cause I can't even write a song without a melody
I need a dank hook for the hoes, trap drums trap yeah for the bros
Sad verse sad boy for my woes, punchline every few for the quotes
I been depressed for a long time, conceal it in my thoughts and a few lines, lacking energy need a few lines
Wanna get old have kids and a dope wife, but the only way I'll make it is if I could move time
Mood swings got me crazy yuh, new thing drive me crazier
Cause she so great I can't compete I'm in my head she said to sleep, I can't just sleep
Cause soon she'll see that I ain't shit, soon she'll see what she can get
And I ain't it, I'm insecure, I'm bugging out, she ain't deserve, cause I been burned
And I use it as excuses, flashback mic wire tight like nooses
Had it mapped out like a blueprint, end it all with what I grew with
The crew is here, we getting lit, I'm too fucked up, I'm throwing up, who's car is this
And I'm just gonna get it started, flashback, memories, brokenhearted
Every single day I wake up I just hate my life
I don't know what to do right now but when I'm with you I'm alright
I hate myself, I need you right now, I ain't myself, I need you right now
I need your help, I need you right now, I hate myself, I need you right now
Memories broken-hearted
Young kid tryna get it started
She ripped my heart apart and
I never felt the same since we parted
Am I wrong for being closed off
Or am I wrong cause I wanna take your clothes off
Lay you down now you think I'm tryna show off
Really I just wanna keep you coming for so long
Insecure and I use it as excuses, flashback mic wire tight like nooses
Had it mapped out like a blueprint, end it all with what I grew with
The crew is here, we getting lit, I'm too fucked up, I'm throwing up, who's car is this
And I'm just gonna get it started, flashback, memories, brokenhearted
Every single day I wake up I just hate my life
I don't know what to do right now but when I'm with you I'm alright
I hate myself, I need you right now, I ain't myself, I need you right now
I need your help, I need you right now, I hate myself, I need you right now

I just wonder if you hate me now
I been so inside my head it's been screaming loud
I just wanna be dead no more freaking out
I can't stay inside my bed without being down
She said, maybe I need therapy
But, lyrics was the one there for me
And the sad thing now it's scarcity
Cause I can't even write a song without a melody
I need a dank hook for the hoes, trap drums trap yeah for the bros
Sad verse sad boy for my woes, punchline every few for the quotes
I been depressed for a long time, conceal it in my thoughts and a few lines, lacking energy need a few lines
Wanna get old have kids and a dope wife, but the only way I'll make it is if I could move time
Mood swings got me crazy yuh, new thing drive me crazier
Cause she so great I can't compete I'm in my head she said to sleep, I can't just sleep
Cause soon she'll see that I ain't shit, soon she'll see what she can get
And I ain't it, I'm insecure, I'm bugging out, she ain't deserve, cause I been burned
And I use it as excuses, flashback mic wire tight like nooses
Had it mapped out like a blueprint, end it all with what I grew with
The crew is here, we getting lit, I'm too fucked up, I'm throwing up, who's car is this
And I'm just gonna get it started, flashback, memories, brokenhearted
Every single day I wake up I just hate my life
I don't know what to do right now but when I'm with you I'm alright
I hate myself, I need you right now, I ain't myself, I need you right now
I need your help, I need you right now, I hate myself, I need you right now
Memories broken-hearted
Young kid tryna get it started
She ripped my heart apart and
I never felt the same since we parted
Am I wrong for being closed off
Or am I wrong cause I wanna take your clothes off
Lay you down now you think I'm tryna show off
Really I just wanna keep you coming for so long
Insecure and I use it as excuses, flashback mic wire tight like nooses
Had it mapped out like a blueprint, end it all with what I grew with
The crew is here, we getting lit, I'm too fucked up, I'm throwing up, who's car is this
And I'm just gonna get it started, flashback, memories, brokenhearted
Every single day I wake up I just hate my life
I don't know what to do right now but when I'm with you I'm alright
I hate myself, I need you right now, I ain't myself, I need you right now
I need your help, I need you right now, I hate myself, I need you right now