Aburden - Don't Say Lyrics

There is something that I can't explain
And I'm sorry for all of the pain that I have caused
I shouldn't have been the one you had to hate
But it was my selfish self that tore us apart

I was always told that I would be okay
And honestly I feel like this constantly
And this is my apology and probably too late I guess that's fate

Don't say that I'm okay
You know nothing about me at all
(I'm fucking not okay)
Depression can ruin my whole day
All I need is release from the pain

The constant unhappy disposition
Will no longer be my everyday position
The amencity of all the pain that we contain
That made us go insane that pushed us away

Don't say that I'm okay
You know nothing about me at all
(Im fucking not okay)
Depression can ruin my whole day
All I need is release from the pain

But I need you to know
That my biggest fear was never losing you
It was loving you so much
That I would lose myself
But it's hard to face the fact
That I lacked everything you wanted to have
But I need you to know
That I love every colour that you have

But there is something that I can't explain
But I need you

But there is something that I can't understand
Why you just settled for acceptance
When love was waiting right in front of you
But you said we were both the same
So you should know that depression can ruin my whole day
So don't say that I'm okay and that everything will be fine
Because I was always told that I would be okay and honestly darling
I feel like this constantly

And I need you to know that I love every colour you have
And I'm so sorry that I lacked everything you wanted to have
But my darling I need you to know that I'm so sorry