A-Legend - My Diary Lyrics

Cause we threw a coro, yeah we threw a coro
Shawty's came over, But I was too sober
Closed mouth
But sober thoughts
Give me the rum
So I can talk (Aye)
N the Mary jane it got me involved
With puzzle pieces that I can't solved
So I ask God
I've been writing lately, is it cause I'm dying lately
God forbid, but wtf you got my mind racing
With words to fill up these sentences
Or is it cause I'm destined to be send out messages,
Out to the youth
But I'm heavenly flawed addictions like you
Sometimes It Feels like no one understands you
Like you confused
Like as soon as you get it
Didn't know what to do it
I swear the fuck am I gonna do
Cause all I wonder
If you ever realize
What's in my mind
What's in my life
Oh yeah
Cause Every time I try not to just think of all these things
I just wanna breath
And I never cried when "X" died
But I probably do when "Shady" does
And If my tears hold value
Then I would drop one for every single thing he show us
They spying on my moves like they James bond
You all up in the buzz, tryna be ahead lightyears beyond
My soul is cover in ice, Im so gone
Always alone on my phone, the days are so long
Procrastination is my only friend all along
Myself to blame, I'm coping to be strong
Cause my brain is filled with a lot of poison
I'm using meds, guess weed is the potion
So we threw a coro, yeah we threw a coro
Shawtys came over, but I still feel sober
I'm drinking that henny, but cold like October
So I just cry on my own, on my shoulders
Cause now in days I be feeling so Bi-polar
Idk if I should believe in myself or I need help
I rather stay quiet, than speak to someone else
Cause the moment I vent, they used it against me
Cause I'm not tryna be accepted
I just want my music to not be rejected
Overwhelm with the thought if I ever make it
Or comes to the grips my soul needs to be accepted
Cause life, fortune, and fame
I know it leads to eternal flames
But at the moment, I'm tired of this pain
Seeing my momma tears come out of her eye veins
Cause we over crowed in a house
Nowhere to stay
And if it wasn't for her
I'll be homeless peforming on stage
No one cares,
Unless I'm Drake or Kanye on the air
Honestly I'm so scared
Call me a Coward
But I don't wanna live a life tryna survive
I wanna
I wanna see the beauty of this world in my eyes
I don't wanna see another 15 year old Die
R.I.P to Junior, can't believe that I'm alive
Damn I can't believe how time fucking flies
Now I'm my best friend, best man
Can't believe that I'm 25
I never seen this image in my eyes
N all I wanted to do was suicide
And all I wanna do is just stop time
Cause all I wonder, all I wonder
If you ever realize, realize
What's in my mind
What's in my life
Oh yeah
Cause Every time I try not to just think of all these things
I just wanna breath...

Cause we threw a coro, yeah we threw a coro
Shawty's came over, But I was too sober
Closed mouth
But sober thoughts
Give me the rum
So I can talk (Aye)
N the Mary jane it got me involved
With puzzle pieces that I can't solved
So I ask God
I've been writing lately, is it cause I'm dying lately
God forbid, but wtf you got my mind racing
With words to fill up these sentences
Or is it cause I'm destined to be send out messages,
Out to the youth
But I'm heavenly flawed addictions like you
Sometimes It Feels like no one understands you
Like you confused
Like as soon as you get it
Didn't know what to do it
I swear the fuck am I gonna do
Cause all I wonder
If you ever realize
What's in my mind
What's in my life
Oh yeah
Cause Every time I try not to just think of all these things
I just wanna breath
And I never cried when "X" died
But I probably do when "Shady" does
And If my tears hold value
Then I would drop one for every single thing he show us
They spying on my moves like they James bond
You all up in the buzz, tryna be ahead lightyears beyond
My soul is cover in ice, Im so gone
Always alone on my phone, the days are so long
Procrastination is my only friend all along
Myself to blame, I'm coping to be strong
Cause my brain is filled with a lot of poison
I'm using meds, guess weed is the potion
So we threw a coro, yeah we threw a coro
Shawtys came over, but I still feel sober
I'm drinking that henny, but cold like October
So I just cry on my own, on my shoulders
Cause now in days I be feeling so Bi-polar
Idk if I should believe in myself or I need help
I rather stay quiet, than speak to someone else
Cause the moment I vent, they used it against me
Cause I'm not tryna be accepted
I just want my music to not be rejected
Overwhelm with the thought if I ever make it
Or comes to the grips my soul needs to be accepted
Cause life, fortune, and fame
I know it leads to eternal flames
But at the moment, I'm tired of this pain
Seeing my momma tears come out of her eye veins
Cause we over crowed in a house
Nowhere to stay
And if it wasn't for her
I'll be homeless peforming on stage
No one cares,
Unless I'm Drake or Kanye on the air
Honestly I'm so scared
Call me a Coward
But I don't wanna live a life tryna survive
I wanna
I wanna see the beauty of this world in my eyes
I don't wanna see another 15 year old Die
R.I.P to Junior, can't believe that I'm alive
Damn I can't believe how time fucking flies
Now I'm my best friend, best man
Can't believe that I'm 25
I never seen this image in my eyes
N all I wanted to do was suicide
And all I wanna do is just stop time
Cause all I wonder, all I wonder
If you ever realize, realize
What's in my mind
What's in my life
Oh yeah
Cause Every time I try not to just think of all these things
I just wanna breath...